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2019-09-01

anond:20190901160430

初心者オススメ梶浦由記って?」歌モノ編

優しいオタクcircus」「After Eden

じっくり育成するオタクKalafina All Time Best」「Everlasting Songs

沼に引きずりこむオタクDestination」「elemental」「Consolation」

しかけてはいけないオタクDream Field」「Fiction、FictionⅡ」

末期なオタクmelodyeverything」「Re/oblivious」

2018-06-09

ミリオンライブダサいコール 5th編

最近アイマスライブでのコール話題になったりならなかったりしてるじゃないですか。

というわけで、この前のミリオン5thのめっちゃダサい通常コール(※)とかについて思ったこと書く増田です。初投稿から何も考えずにメモ帳に書いたのをそのままコピペしました。

5th編って書いたけど続きも前編もないです。

※通常コール……FuFuu!(ふっふー!) fwfw(ふわふわふわふわ) PPPH(オーイング) などのこと。

Brand New Theater!

BメロPPPH

円陣 組んで 目と目 合わせ」のところ、そこ追っかけしないでハイハイしか言わないのはなぜですか。「もっともっと熱く」は言ってるのに。

Thank You!とかの追っかけを踏襲してるもんだと思ってた。

ジレハートに火をつけて

「熱い熱い情熱で(FuFuu!)ジレハートに火(fwfwfwfw)」

定番ですね。

fwfwしてるところがダサいです。

どっちもFuFuu!にするかFu・Fuu!にすればまだマシになります

なんかのBDでFuFuufwfwの部分がFu・Fuu!に差し替えられてるのがあったけれど、どの公演かはもう覚えてないです。

公式的には「熱い熱い情熱(Fu・Fuu!) ジレハートに火をつけ(Fu・ Fuu!)」なんですかね。

元の音源修正音源が被って「熱い熱い情熱(FuFuFuu!) ジレハートに火(fwfwFu・Fuu!)」になってたのが面白かった記憶があります

Blue Symphony

これまた定番ですけど、BメロPPPHがいらないなんてのは全員が思ってることなので書くまででもないです。

普通に「信じる翼(翼)」とかしたほうがいいですよ。

イントロのFuFuu!は結構好きです。後ろと前の音のリズムが違うから若干違和感はありますが。

未来形リーマー

Bメロでの警報からPPPH

ここ最近の曲で最悪のコールだと思ってます

これに入れるくらいならまだ瑠璃色とかRebellionとかに入れてた方が酷くないですよ。

メガトンボイスと5thでは聞いたんですけど、あんだけ後ろでドコドコしてるのにオーハイオーハイ繰り返してるのが信じられない。

CD音源聴きながらコール練習してみて違和感とかなかったんですかね?

ひたすらペンライトを振り続けて、コールするとしたら「もう一回 やってみよう 次こそは……!(HiHiHi!)」とかじゃないんですか?

それとサビ。

何もない。何もなくて逆になぜ?となる。

「ちぐはぐな夢だって(Hi!) でこぼこな道だって(Hi!) あなたが 信じて くれたら 大(Hi! Hi! Hi! Hi!)」とかにならないのはなんでだろう。

*ENTER→PLEASURE

「おいで! Clap(FuFuu!)And Smile(FuFuu!) いつだって(FuFuu!)踊ろうよ(fwfwfwfw)」

せめてクラップしません???歌詞読んで???

あと電子音な感じで(Hi!)って音?声?が聞こえるから、「おいで! Clap(Hi!)And Smile(Hi!) いつだって(HiHi!)踊ろうよ」とか良くないですか?

*UNION!!

完全新曲披露コールしないでください。

こんなもんです。

後は煮るなり焼くなり燃やすなりしてください。

ここまで書いといてあれなんですけど、「FuFuu!」「Fu・Fuu!」って入るタイミングとか違うのでそのへん文字にするの難しいので各自学んでください(?)。




おまけ

シャニスリリイベも近いですね。

*Spread the Wings!!

「Spread the Wings(FuFuu!) 行こう(FuFuu!) 今、羽ばたく(せーの!fwfwfwfw)」になると思います

このへんのコール別にいいけれど、「翼を広げて (君とどこまでも) あの空の彼方」とかのあたりでどっちを言うのかみたいなことになりそうです。

ヒカリdestination

BメロPPPHするくらいなら音に合わせてFuFuFu!とかやるほうがイケてます

*夢咲きAfter school

小宮果穂ちゃんの「ナンバーワンッ!」聞きたくないですか???

*Multicolored Sky

コールとかどうでもいいんで落ちサビ前の「私たちの一瞬も染めるの…オレンジへ」の「オレンジへ」でUOを折ってください。

もちろん他の色とりどりのペンライトも持ったままです。

未来の色になって。

最後LaLaLa…は、「LaLaLa~. LaLaLa~La. LaLaLa~. LaLaLaLa~La.」の繰り返しです。

2014-10-12

これだけは聞いとけ卒業スピーチ7+1(英語学習者向け)

"The secret I've learned to getting ahead is being open to the lessons." by Oprah Winfrey, Stanford 2008

David Foster Wallace, Kenyon College, 2005

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8CrOL-ydFMI

Full Transcript: http://web.ics.purdue.edu/~drkelly/DFWKenyonAddress2005.pdf

The only thing that's capital-T True is that you get to decide how you're gonna try to see it. This, I submit, is the freedom of a real education, of learning how to be well-adjusted. You get to consciously decide what has meaning and what doesn't. You get to decide what to worship.

Conan O'Brien, Dartmouth College, 2011

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ELC_e2QBQMk

Transcript: http://www.dartmouth.edu/~commence/news/speeches/2011/obrien-speech.html

It is our failure to become our perceived ideal that ultimately defines us and makes us unique. It's not easy, but if you accept your misfortune and handle it right, your perceived failure can become a catalyst for profound re-invention.

or, "Nietzsche famously said "Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger." But what he failed to stress is that it almost kills you."

Jeff Bezos, Princeton 2010

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBmavNoChZc

Transcript: http://www.businessinsider.com/we-are-what-we-choose-2010-6

"Cleverness is a gift, kindness is a choice. Gifts are easy -- they're given, after all. Choices can be hard. You can seduce yourself with your gifts if you're not careful, and if you do, it'll probably be to the detriment of your choices."

Dick Costolo, Michigan, 2013

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oqRPesTumlA

You can’t plan a script. BE in THIS moment.

or, "You need to make more courageous choices. Take courageous risks."

David McCullough, Wellesley High School 2012

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_lfxYhtf8o4

Transcript: http://www.myfoxboston.com/story/18720284/2012/06/06/full-transcript-youre-not-special-speech

And read… read all the time… read as a matter of principle, as a matter of self-respect. Read as a nourishing staple of life.

You're not special. Because everyone is.

Ellen DeGeneres, Tulane 2009

Video:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0JccudODwwY

Transcript: http://gradspeeches.com/2009/2009/ellen-degeneres

"If you don’t remember a thing I said today, remember this, you’re going to be ok, dum de dumdumdum, just dance.

or, "the most important thing in your life is to live your life with integrityand not to give into peer pressure to try to be something that you’re not, to live your life as an honest and compassionate person, to contribute in some way. So to conclude my conclusion, follow your passion, stay true to yourself. "

Steve Jobs, Stanford, 2005

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF8uR6Z6KLc

Transcript: http://news.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to Heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because death is very likely the single best invention of life. It is life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

おまけ Elon Musk, TED

Chris Anderson: Elon, how have you done this? These projects are so -- Paypal, SolarCity, Tesla, SpaceX, they're so spectacularly different, they're such ambitious projects at scale. How on Earth has one person been able to innovate in this way? What is it about you?

18:33

Elon Musk: I don't know, actually. I don't have a good answer for you. I work a lot. I mean, a lot.

Transcript: http://www.ted.com/talks/elon_musk_the_mind_behind_tesla_spacex_solarcity/transcript?language=en

2013-12-09

http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20131209094911

お前増田は初めてか?


増田はその性質上

名前を隠したい人」の他に

「頭悪すぎてはてなの他のどのサービスでも相手されなかった人」とか

メンヘラすぎてはてなの他のどのサービスコミュニケーションできなかった人」とかが

final destination的に流れ着く場でもあるので

馬鹿なこと書いてる奴に突っ込んでたらきりがなくなるぞ

2013-01-06

2011年エロゲ売り上げランキング(TECHGIANトップランキングより)

    TG  PUSH     発売日      タイトルブランド

1.  2504 27,916 2011年04月28日 大帝国 ALICESOFT

2.  2273 26,268 2011年10月28日 ワルキューレロマンツェ[少女騎士物語] Ricotta

3.  2271 25,652 2011年04月28日 穢翼のユースティア August

4.  2029 24,420 2011年05月27日 カミカゼ☆エクスプローラー! クロシェット

5.  2006 27,180 2011年09月30日 恋騎士 Purely☆Kiss エフォルダソフト  

6.  1896 22,920 2011年04月22日 神採りアルケミーマイスター エウシュリー

7.  1498 17,752 2011年08月26日 ランスクエスト ALICESOFT

8.  1415 24,424 2011年06月24日 Rewrite Key

9.  1313 18,268 2011年02月25日 グリザイアの果実 FrontWing

10 1167 15,560 2011年10月28日 恋色空模様 after happiness and extra hearts すたじお緑茶

11 0986 10,120 2011年04月28日 sisters~夏の最後の日~ Jellyfish

12 0945 13,676 2011年01月28日 黙って私のムコになれ! ensemble

13 0884 09,432 2011年05月27日 愛しい対象(カノジョ)の護り方 AXL

14 0870 22,099 2011年12月22日 WHITE ALBUM 2~closing chapter~ Leaf

15 0868 13,676 2011年12月22日 あっぱれ!天下御免 BaseSon

16 0801 09,308 2011年05月20日 へんし~ん!!!~パンツになってクンクンペロペロ~ May-Be SOFT

17 0796 10,020 2011年04月15日 11eyes-Resona Forma- Lass

18 0777 09,632 2011年02月25日 ラブラブル~Lover Able~ SMEE

19 0760 10,040 2011年09月02日 未来ノスタルジア パープルソフトウェア

20 0738 09,284 2011年09月30日 your diary CUBE

21 0729 09,396 2011年05月27日 STARLESS(スターレス) Empress

22 0708 10,376 2011年06月24日 LOVELY×CATION 暁WORKS-響-

23 0690 09,872 2011年07月29日 いきなりあなたに恋している  枕

24 0659 08,892 2011年07月29日 いろとりどりのセカイ FAVORITE

25 0652 08,252 2011年11月25日 晴れときどきお天気雨 ぱれっと

26 0650 07,820 2011年08月26日 ダイヤミック・デイズ Lump of Sugar

27 0648 08,516 2011年09月30日 Lunaris Filia~キス契約深紅の瞳~ Whirlpool

28 0628 07,120 2011年12月22日 真夏の夜の雪物語 -MIDSUMMER SNOW NIGHT- EX-ONE

29 0616 11,140 2011年11月25日 Strawberry Nauts -ストロベリーノーツ- HOOKSOFT

30 0608 08,132 2011年10月28日 恋愛0キロメートル ASa Project

31 0607 06,156 2011年07月29日 禁断の病棟~特殊精神科医 遊佐惣介の診察記録~ アトリエかぐや TEAM HEARTBEAT

32 0587 04,392 2011年01月28日 カスタムメイド3D KISS

33 0584 07,348 2011年01月28日 妹ぱらだいす!~お兄ちゃんと5人の妹のエッチしまくりな毎日~ MOONSTONE Cherry

34 0580 08,776 2011年05月27日 恋ではなく ――It’s not love,but so where near. しゃんぐりらすまーと

35 0580 08,156 2011年09月30日 らぶ2Quad ま~まれぇど

36 0563 08,024 2011年09月30日 神咒神威神楽(かじりかむいかぐら) light

37 0534 07,412 2011年09月22日 シュクレ~sweet and charming time for you~ 戯画

38 0530 06,664 2011年02月25日 三射面談連鎖する恥辱・調教の学園~ BISHOP

39 0526 06,608 2011年03月31日 鬼ごっこ! ALcot

40 0519 11,472 2011年12月16日 輝光翼戦記 銀の刻のコロナ ETERNAL

41 0512 06,864 2011年08月05日 裏教師~背徳の淫悦授業~ BISHOP

42 0490 07,248 2011年06月24日 舞風メルト -Where leads to feeling destination- Whirlpool

43 0490 06,056 2011年06月24日 雪鬼屋温泉記 ソフトハウスキャラ

44 0473 07,948 2011年03月31日 つよきす3学期 CandySoft

45 0469 05,836 2011年01月28日 極道花嫁 GALACTICA

46 0459 05,384 2011年06月10日 キミとボクとエデンの林檎 ALMA

47 0447 06,820 2011年09月30日 SuGirly Wish HOOKSOFT

48 0443 06,412 2011年07月29日 Princess Evangile~プリンセスエヴァンジール~ MOONSTONE

49 0429 05,960 2011年05月20日 CURE GIRL Noesis

50 0422 05,652 2011年06月24日 Hyper→Highspeed→Genius ういんどみる

51 0419 04,740 2011年04月28日 SHUFFLE! Love Rainbow Navel

52 0417 06,404 2011年01月28日 星の王子くん Leaf

53 0416 05,600 2011年07月29日 君を仰ぎ乙女は姫に PeasSoft

54 0402 06,684 2011年02月25日 Flyable CandyHeart ユニゾンシフトブロッサム

55 0400 05,240 2011年07月29日 時を奏でる円舞曲ワルツ) でぼの巣製作

56 0398 06,840 2011年11月25日 ソニコミ ニトロプラス

57 0397 06,028 2011年06月24日 マブラヴ オルタネイティヴ クロニクルズ02 アージュ

58 0393 04,684 2011年08月26日 姫騎士リヴィア~へ、変態、この変態男! 少しは恥を知りなさい!~ シルキー

59 0389 05,616 2011年02月25日 蒼穹のソレイユ~FULLMETAL EYES~ SkyFish

60 0383 06,032 2011年07月29日 戦国天使ジブリール フロントウイング

61 0363 04,984 2011年02月25日 With Ribbon HULOTTE

62 0359 --,--- 2011年07月15日 えむっ娘シスターズ Apricot Cherry

63 0357 05,156 2011年05月27日 太陽のプロミア SEVEN WONDER

64 0355 03,908 2011年04月22日 いじらレンタルエロあまおねえさんに貸し出されちゃった!!~ アトリエかぐや Honky-Tonk Pumpkin

65 0353 05,016 2011年03月31日 ぜったい絶頂性器の大発明!! ―処女(おとめ)を狙う学園道具多発エロ― softhouse-seal

66 0347 05,000 2011年01月28日 AQUA SORAHANE

67 0347 04,524 2011年06月24日 学園退魔! ホーリー×モーリー Frill

68 0347 04,248 2011年04月08日 デュエリスト×エンゲージ プラリネ

69 0346 04,064 2011年02月25日 巨乳ファンタジー外伝 WAFFLE

70 0339 05,084 2011年04月28日 relations sister×sister. Aileエール

71 0338 05,612 2011年02月25日 猫撫ディストーション WHITESOFT

72 0319 04,040 2011年03月31日 fortissimo EXA//Akkord:Bsusvier(フォルテシモ イクサコルト ビーサスフィーア) La’cryma

73 0299 03,768 2011年01月28日 BLOODY†RONDO 3rdEye

74 0297 04,632 2011年03月31日 シークレットゲーム CODE:Revise FLAT

75 0297 03,476 2011年02月25日 聖戦姫ヴァルキュア・シスターズ~淫闇(やみ)に堕ちたアイドル~ catwalkNERO

76 0296 03,432 2011年02月25日 姫様限定!~Princess Limited~ Princess Sugar

77 0291 03,840 2011年03月25日 それでも妻を愛してる ルネ

78 0282 02,992 2011年06月10日 ジンコウクエン ILLUSION

79 0253 03,608 2011年05月27日 でりばらっ! -deliverance of strays- Parasol

80 0251 03,692 2011年01月28日 アネカノ~お姉ちゃんえっちであまーいヒミツの関係~ chococo

TG   : TECHGIANトップランキング2011年上半期、2011年下半期、期間内各月2011年01月01日~2012年01月31日

PUSH : totoPUSH!!売り上げランキング2011年01月16日2012年02月15日

2012-04-05

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2011-12-28

Summer scenery to take pictures of small skills

Undesirable cameras benefits us many 100 % satisfaction, leading to numerous spectacular images, as well as the hot months is operating relating to dependable summertime. This specific classmate through break free will be able to figure out any tons in addition to waterways, downtown along with far-away beautiful gardening, and yet may these pure attractiveness to become a memento playing hit decrease, apart from skin color boil due to the high-end digicam purpose, a great deal more simple could be to evaluation whatever taking pictures competency as well as having photos. The amount, smaller try to make your work latest many of the summer season harvesting powerful see to it, typically the classmate need to next image have a go through, you become this confidently unexpected wonder.

Digital cameras would bring us lots of enjoyment, leaving a myriad of unique images, and summertime is journeying in wonderful summer season. The classmate throughout the getaway can recognize that reams together with estuaries and rivers, metropolitan and also countryside attractive panoramas, yet take place all these charm being a memento opportunity straight down, together with steam as a result of a camcorder operation, a lot more crucial is usually to examine ones own taking functionality and also taking photographs. That period, the little generate your choice have quite a few summer months firing effective be mindful, the particular classmate may as well within the next snapshot have a shot at, you will get the particular total surprising stun.

Household landscapes

By out of doors firing indoors panoramas, basic will need throughout the Windows 7, out-of-doors mild typically currently have more substantial indoors light-weight, now a couple of challenges ought to be sorted out, is the particular coverage time frame, a couple of it truly is in order to avoid a display reflective, when pics of any camera through hands-on management operate, might take number of years coverage setting up, when photographic camera goes so that you can twit style, can easily will likely be ISO level of sensitivity Surroundings bump up, this ISO 2 hundred or perhaps ISO six hundred aiming.

Inside panorama 's best golf shot employing a tripod, in any other case, wants a spot to guide, one example is in opposition to any divider and entry, and even the true reason for executing it is because very long coverage is quite effortless construct any digital camera protein shake, producing photographs regarding fluffy envision. It's best to utilize the shutter launch, or perhaps utilize to get center-weighted avoiding relocate a video camera. Notice: except if absolutely necessary, tend not to available the particular pen, stay clear of a lot more reflective.

Out-of-doors landscapes

Bring that landscape designs from the probability with the photo may well schedule some individuals or even factors, and this also may help the room inside the operation of your view photos. Get a large surfaces area photos, as an example the veranda as well as the roof top, hillside, for example. Typically inside the mid-day is without a doubt the most suitable time frame filming this landscapes. Filming, having a polarizer to adjust a illumination with the stars, produce the particular heavens develop into dreary quite a few, well known from the glowing blue stars the white kind of fog up, as a way to boost the space or room repeatedly.

Several virtually no guidebook vulnerability management of any camera together with location form, as well as the landscape designs way is completely features on the list of manner, you are able to use landscape designs way to adopt shots. Together with handbook vulnerability restrain photographic camera might opt for aperture goal option that will movie, aperture to help acquired far better pick out F8 to help you photograph or maybe F11, this photo will be extra management concentrations senses.

houses

The particular modify on the urban center is without a doubt switching, specifically together with a lot of approach large establishing intended for symbolize, and also this are at recent many portrait digital photography buffs including firing template.

Yet typical photographic camera through simply how much suitable container distortion, hence as a way to make an effort to reduce the photograph of your deformation belonging to the accumulating " up ", thus you ought to pick around substantial thoughts and opinions filming. One example is inside the steps, or perhaps some other might help the beliefs with area. If you fail to find the correct destination for a reside, you can from the again, clear of the particular lead entity to cut back a distortion. Maybe you've employed the greatest wide-angle standard zoom lens. Vivid stars will be able to replace with a developing with the darkish. Having a polarizer to cut back or perhaps wipe out construction with reflective a glass. In addition to, certainly, consume an excellent know with the can make one of a kind imaginative results.

mineral water

Firing apply or maybe a aerosol in waters, incorporate the use of part mild and also backlight try to make waters intended for introducing see through pattern. Several novices all of coveted by a really "splash with photos, in truth, I am able to effortlessly applied for, so the hurrying h2o glance alot more downy, have got a form of passionate blur. Shutter possibly inside 1/10 so that you can 1/6 erinarians regulate might get move cosmetic perception for splash pics.

At night and also night time

Local plumber to be able to sunset taking scenario regarding is usually 15-30 moments, next the stars always possess some colouring failed to ends. As a way to raise the graphic with the amount with subject, can easily on the ending with the passage and also uncover several regarding an individual's special world. It is as well the location where the tripod on has to be, commonly programmed coverage is definitely o . k ., yet you should attempt to utilize hands-on visibility, and also the employment of the particular shutter put out restrain taking, respectively for 2, 5, 8, 12 and also of sixteen secs shutter tempo so that you can capture some photo contrast.

Needless to say now and again continue to are able to use ISO200 to help you photograph, yet so that you can be aware of an electronic camcorder with disturbance handle is normally adequate, when pixels will be overweight, or maybe together with ISO100 contrasting by using base style to help motion picture.

In truth firing night time scenarios, at times to be able to as well do not require that filming with step-by-step developing oh, this streets these kinds of, a small amount convert tips plus aiming design and style, might get the result of experiencing a specialized pattern.

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2011-12-06

http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20111205175119

あるよ。

書いたとおり、ルータとかが Destination Host Unreachable をよこせば表示される。

宛先ノード本人が居留守のために返してくることもあるのかもしれないけど。

2011-12-05

ping 結果 - Windows 7場合

自分のサブネット以外は、ルーターによる

・「要求がタイムアウトしました」

MACアドレスは分かっているが、icmp.echo の応答が無い - 自分のサブネット

・「宛先ホストに到達できません」

MACアドレスすらわからない - ただし自分のサブネット

これも、OSバージョン変更で仕様が変わったんだぜ。

XPでは、両方「タイムアウト」だったはずだ。

どこからかわざわざdestination host unreachableを返してきたら話は別だがな。

2011-09-08

Feeling of the cat

Translated from http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20110907020451


For a long time, I am in a dark box.


According to someone's comment I heard outside of the box, a tiny bottle containing deadly poison is located in this box. Although the bottle is completely sealed, a hammer is positioned in the vicinity of the bottle. And they said the hammer would fall down at a certain time.


When is "the certain time"? I don't know. In this very moment? Or distant future? Possibly, it already has come (I don't want to think about it). No one can affect the hammer. As an independent event, it will fall down with probability 50%. The probability is exactly 50%. Possibly, the bottle may be broken, or may not. About myself, dead, or, alive.


I must say, how terrible the situation is.


It is impossible for me to avoid having a furious indignation. My life, the most important issue for me, is completely away from me, and is solely dependent on the simple figure, FIFTY PERCENT! Too much terrible.


Additionally, and I think it is completely unreasonable, I am shackled in many ways to keep the probability at exactly 50%.


Visual perception. The box is completely shielded from any light. It's for avoiding me from finding and destroying the bottle and apparatus. Complete darkness. I am in the total darkness. Thus, now I can’t see even the outline of myself. Possibly it sounds strange, the darkness makes me have a doubt about the existence of my body itself.


Acoustic perception. Maybe, from the reason I mentioned above, a perfect sound insulation is used. I can’t hear even the voice of my own. I don't know the mechanism. In the first place, as I can’t see anything, how can I investigate it? So, this is only a speculation, possibly, my drum membranes were damaged before enclosure in this box, or, some special material is used for the wall of the box.


Anyway, in a dark box too much good at shielding light and sound, my visual and acoustic perception is dead just as the term indicates.


As if further confirmation are needed, a huge fatigue weighing heavily upon me is another shackle for me. It seems that they gave me some kind of muscle relaxant to avoid me from struggling. As I can’t change from the same posture, my tactile perception is almost paralyzed.


No light. No sound. Smell and taste are unreliable. Tactile perception is in malfunction. I am like a puppet. All the five senses are out of control of mine. Too much cruel. Perfect shackles. I wish if they had given a sleeping medicine. I feel I am in agony without any external injury. My life, my existence itself, is completely ignored. Such a humiliation keeps my sanity. Only such a humiliation can.


The right to control the life and death of myself is completely deprived. I hate such situation. The core determinant of the continuity of my life is completely dependent upon, solely upon, a pure probability. Completely away from anyone's will. I hate it, again, I hate it!


Why do I have to be enclosed in such a box? In such a ridiculous box, why do I have to be in fear of life and death with such perfect shackles?


Unreasonable. Cruel.


I am lonely. Am I feeling empty and flat? Difficult to avoid sobbing? No. My loneliness is much deeper. I am in a sea of void. I am alone. Completely alone. As an orphan, I was thrown into this endless darkness. I am quivering in the absolute zero.


There is no perspective in this box. Only the darkness is here. I can’t feel the bottle and the hammer. I can’t feel the wall, the bottom, and the ceiling neither. They should be there. But all the five senses of mine are deprived. I feel like there is nothing. While those things have some meanings.


Speaking honestly, I am not so sure I am in a box. I am sure that what I am exists. I am thinking. I am fantasizing. It is the evidence showing the uniqueness of mine, which is called the ego or the consciousness or the mind, is solid. But, is the uniqueness is truly enclosed in the box? Is it possible that it is floating in another space? I can’t eliminate such doubts.


Possibly, what I am here is floating in the end of the universe, or is lying down at the bottom of the Mariana Trench. Or going down from a vent of the Kilauea volcano, maybe.


I don't have any method to know how the box (enclosing me) is. All the senses of mine are dead. It is impossible for me to determine whether here is inside of a box or not.


In addition to that, I am not so sure that I am truly alive. I don't have any way to confirm such a simple thing. Possibly, the 50% probability has already passed beyond me. Maybe I am already dead. I am still alive, maybe. Injected with muscle relaxant, shallow breathes, weak heartbeats. Or, cessation of all of them, simply leaving meat bolus.


I am deprived of any capability of controlling my own body. Who can say that my mind resides in the body continuing vital activities? The five senses have been poisoned with the total darkness. They can’t function as sensory organs. I don't have any chance to know the truth. Possibly, any supposition is fabricated by myself. The situation surrounding me and the uniqueness of myself are components of programmed role-play, possibly.


About the existence of mine, I can’t determine the behavior. I hate to admit it, but I am in the middle of fluctuation.


I wish someone could find me. I wish someone could open the box and observe how I am, and determine what I am. There is not enough power inside me to do so. All I can do is to continue to quiver in the loneliness.


If I were the Almighty, I could say "Let there be light". I know it is impossible. But I can‘t help feeling how nice it would be if I could say so.


My own free will! It could fix every fluctuation surrounding myself!


At the same time, longing produces shadow. If the box is opened, I will be found and observed. As a result, what I am will be determined. To tell the truth, I can’t look away from the fact I am anxious about being determined.


Although I am unable to determine whether I am alive or dead by myself, I am afraid of the death. I am afraid that I am determined as a dead. I can’t accept. Still I can’t feel, I can’t imagine the death as a specific phenomenon. Probably, that is why I am afraid of death.


No, it should not be restricted to me. King of virtue. Deadly murderer. Regular folks. All the same. Maybe, the elder people or patients of bad disease could have some imagination sufficiently close to the true death. But, even so, it is impossible to know the specific experience of death.


In the end, death is the final destination with overwhelming significance. The time and the consciousness have an absolute irreversibility. Death also has the absoluteness which can’t be changed. Even if it is a ritual pass point or an outstanding impressive event.


Myself, the mind of mine here is, will be vanished at the moment at which how I am is determined. If they deprive the lukewarm water, in which I can’t feel the temperature, it is impossible for me to avoid exposing myself to the air.


I am afraid of such an irreversible change. It is not limited to the determination of death. Also I am so anxious that I am determined being alive.


The current existence of myself is like a tiny, tiny illusion standing on an endless point. Not larger than that. Not smaller than that. Not longer than that. Not shorter than that. No expansion. No shrinkage. Standing upon a unique single point. It is mathematically correct. I am something like a ghost staying upon such a point, having confusion about identity of myself.


The point exists at every position on a plane of coordinates, at the same time, not existing at a certain position. If a certain event occurs, on that moment, it will converge me to a single point among all the space-times, in which the event has occurred, as if having me step off a bus. Without any concern. Even if the point and I have been a one. The illusion, which has stayed in such a point, has possibilities of being real and being vanished like a mist, to an equal degree.


Now, I am existing in every time-space, I have every nature. At the same time, I am suffering from the loneliness that I am away from every nature. I wish someone can find me. At the same time, I am so anxious that where I will be, and that how I will be at that moment.


I have been released from the law of cause and effect. I am undetermined ever, for ever.

 
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