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2019-05-21

all this has to do with career development of Indian staff, eh? It was all a long time ago. Better forgotten.

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044280692-Eleni-oragir-2-сезон-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-серия-172-серия-сегодняшняя-серия

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https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044280712-Элени-орагир-2-сезон-Eleni-oragir-172-серия-онлайн-Watch-Eleni-Oragir-2-sezon-Episode-172-Online-Free-Shant-TV

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044280732-Елени-орагир-2-часть-новая-172-серия-Eleni-oragir-2-172-episode-smotrite-онл-йн-

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044086511-New-SMOTRET-Eleni-oragire-2-Seria-172-172-выпуск-Eleni-oragir-2-sezon-Full

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everyone, you know. No-one has any time for an old fool like me, what? I just look after my garden these

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https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044282272-Сериал-Mecic-poqr-seria-10-Մեծից-փոքր-սերիա-10-Мециц-покр-серия-10-Армянский-сериал

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044282292--NEW-TV-Мециц-Покр-Mecic-Pokr-Серия-10-Seria-10-смотреть-online

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https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044282392-Patvic-aravel-seria-52-Պատվից-առավել-սերիա-52-Патвиц-аравел-52-серия

Has a vineyard, you know. Not bad, eh?' They also drank a dark red, fruity Cahors with the pie.

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044280692-Eleni-oragir-2-сезон-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-серия-172-серия-сегодняшняя-серия

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044086431-Էլենի-Օրագիրը-2-Սերիա-172-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-Episode-172-все-серии-подряд

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https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044280772-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-172-Seria-Все-серии-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-172-серия-172-episode

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044086551-Eleni-Oragir-2-Элени-Орагире-2-сезон-Episode-172-Все-выпуски-подряд

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044280792--smotret-Eleni-Oragir-2-172-серия-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-Армянский-портал

https://z3nandrei.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360044086671-Eleni-oragir-2-сезон-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-серия-173-серия-сегодняшняя-серия

2019-05-06

The notional value of the CDS market has been surpassed and entering the area of ​​「京」

Financial engineering has made it possible, no one can stop the expansion of this information economy

Everything is a matrix

2019-05-03

I thought, 'Donna! It has to be Donna. He does like her.' I said, 'Do I know this person?'

https://cobinhood.zendesk.com/hc/en-as/community/posts/360043354491-03-05-2019-Право-голоса-3-мая-2019-смотреть-передача-сегодня-

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2019-04-30

Donna is pretty, of course. She has it all: pretty hair, blue eyes, nice teeth — and no freckles! Boys

https://cobinhood.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360043321191-Фулл-Хаус-9-сезон-14-серия-онлайн-Full-House-9-seria-14-последняя-серия

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https://cobinhood.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360043321251-Kukuruz-seria-7-online-кукуруз-серия-7-часть-Կօօկօօռօօզ-Армянский-сериал

https://cobinhood.zendesk.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360043529352-Армянский-сериал-Kukuruz-7-episode-Coocoorooz-7-серия-Կօօկօօռօօզ-Սերիա-7-смотреть-все-серии-онлайн

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says about her. Her best friend, Donna, never has problems with boys. Donna has pretty hair,

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003484999-Элени-орагир-2-сезон-Eleni-oragir-159-серия-онлайн-Watch-Eleni-Oragir-2-sezon-Episode-159-Online-Free-Shant-TV

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507720-Елени-орагир-2-часть-новая-159-серия-Eleni-oragir-2-159-episode-smotrite-онл-йн-

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507740-New-SMOTRET-Eleni-oragire-2-Seria-159-159-выпуск-Eleni-oragir-2-sezon-Full

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507760-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-159-Seria-Все-серии-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-159-серия-159-episode

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003485019-Eleni-Oragir-2-Элени-Орагире-2-сезон-Episode-159-Все-выпуски-подряд

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507780--smotret-Eleni-Oragir-2-159-серия-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-Армянский-портал

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507800--serial-Harsik-Арсик-СЕРИЯ-772-смотреть-последняя-серия-online

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507820-Арсик-772-серия-Harsike-772-seria-ՀԱՐՍԻԿԸ-Новая-серия

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003485039-Harsike-772-Seria-Последняя-серия-Арсик-772-հարսիկը-772-

she thinks. And Susie has problems with boys. 'Great legs, but I don't like the freckles,' one boy

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507600-Էլենի-Օրագիրը-2-Սերիա-158-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-Episode-158-все-серии-подряд

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507620-Элени-орагир-2-сезон-Eleni-oragir-158-серия-онлайн-Watch-Eleni-Oragir-2-sezon-Episode-158-Online-Free-Shant-TV

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003484939-Елени-орагир-2-часть-новая-158-серия-Eleni-oragir-2-158-episode-smotrite-онл-йн-

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003484959-New-SMOTRET-Eleni-oragire-2-Seria-158-158-выпуск-Eleni-oragir-2-sezon-Full

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507640-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-158-Seria-Все-серии-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-158-серия-158-episode

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https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507680-Eleni-oragir-2-сезон-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-серия-159-серия-сегодняшняя-серия

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507700-Էլենի-Օրագիրը-2-Սերիա-159-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-Episode-159-все-серии-подряд

Susie has freckles, and she hates them! 'When I'm older they'll be one BIG freckle, all over me!'

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507480-Eleni-oragir-2-сезон-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-серия-157-серия-сегодняшняя-серия

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003484879-Էլենի-Օրագիրը-2-Սերիա-157-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-Episode-157-все-серии-подряд

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003484899-Элени-орагир-2-сезон-Eleni-oragir-157-серия-онлайн-Watch-Eleni-Oragir-2-sezon-Episode-157-Online-Free-Shant-TV

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003484919-Елени-орагир-2-часть-новая-157-серия-Eleni-oragir-2-157-episode-smotrite-онл-йн-

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507500-New-SMOTRET-Eleni-oragire-2-Seria-157-157-выпуск-Eleni-oragir-2-sezon-Full

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507520-Eleni-Oragir-2-сезон-157-Seria-Все-серии-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-157-серия-157-episode

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507540-Eleni-Oragir-2-Элени-Орагире-2-сезон-Episode-157-Все-выпуски-подряд

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507560--smotret-Eleni-Oragir-2-157-серия-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-Армянский-портал

https://support.eneighbors.com/hc/en-us/community/posts/360003507580-Eleni-oragir-2-сезон-Էլենի-օրագիրը-2-серия-158-серия-сегодняшняя-серия

2019-04-29

anond:20190429041316

二人目不妊なんて冗談だと思ってた

一人目の子供をさっさと寝せて夫婦時間を確保できない奴に、兄弟を育てることなんてできないから、できないようにしておいたよってことかもしれない。

最近ではそんな気がする。

一人目の子供の時、この子をどう育てようかというグランドデザインがあった。まあ、完成したのは妊娠がわかってからなんだけどさ。

考えてみると、複数いたときにその子たちをどう育てるかというデザインはまだできていない気がする。

何年か自然にはできずに焦って不妊治療してみたけれど、結局できず、気が付けばアラフォー

すでに無理かもしれなのが見え始めている。

一人もいない人にとってはぜいたくな悩みなのはわかっている。

でも、公園兄弟で遊んでいるのをうらやましそうにしているのを見るとき、「なんで私には兄弟がいないの?」と聞かれるとき子供申し訳ない気持ちになる。

兄弟がいると増田が言うような大変さがあるのはわかる、でも、子供の寂しそうな顔は結構精神的にくるものがある。

この年齢にそれを求めるのは間違いかもしれないけれど、親から見て人づきあいが下手なのは兄弟がいないのも理由なのかと思ったりしてしまう。

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.

2019-04-18

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2019-04-12

anond:20190411185109

厚労省に都合悪いところを訳さないのはなぜ?

 

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Several studies have demonstrated the therapeutic effects of cannabinoids for nausea and vomiting in the advanced stages of illnesses such as cancer and AIDS. Dronabinol (tetrahydrocannabinol) has been available by prescription for more than a decade in the USA. Other therapeutic uses of cannabinoids are being demonstrated by controlled studies, including treatment of asthma and glaucoma, as an antidepressant, appetite stimulant, anticonvulsant and anti-spasmodic, research in this area should continue. For example, more basic research on the central and peripheral mechanisms of the effects of cannabinoids on gastrointestinal function may improve the ability to alleviate nausea and emesis. More research is needed on the basic neuropharmacology of THC and other cannabinoids so that better therapeutic agents can be found.

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いくつかの研究は、癌およびAIDSなどの病気の進行段階における悪心および嘔吐に対するカンナビノイド治療効果実証している。ドロナビノール(テトラヒドロカンナビノール)は、米国10年以上前から処方薬として入手可能です。カンナビノイドの他の治療使用は、喘息および緑内障治療を含む、抗うつ薬、食欲促進薬、抗けいれん薬および抗けいれん薬としての制御された研究によって実証されており、この分野における研究は続けられるべきである。例えば、消化管機能に対するカンナビノイド作用の中枢性および末梢性機序に関するより基礎的な研究は、悪心および嘔吐を軽減する能力改善するかもしれません。よりよい治療薬を見いだすことができるように、THCおよび他のカンナビノイドの基礎的な神経薬理学に関するさらなる研究必要です。

2019-04-03

外務省ファクスを訳してみた

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/D3DEctGU0AAS249.jpg

サーキュラ

外務省は、日本駐在する外交使節団と国際組織に対し、以下の事項をお知らせする栄を得るものであります

1.天皇の退位等に関する皇室典範特例法の施行期日を定める政令施行により、天皇陛下が御退位され、翌5月1日に皇太子殿下が御即位されることになります

2.2019年4月1日閣議で、皇太子殿下天皇陛下として即位される2019年5月1日から日本新時代を「れいわ」と呼ぶことが決まりました。

外務省はこれを機会として、今後とも外交使節団国際機関に深厚の敬意を表すものであります

CIRCULAR

The Ministry of Foreign Affairs presents its compliments to the Diplomatic Missions and International Organizations in Japan and has the honour to inform them of the following:

1.Following the enforcement of the Special Measures Law on the Imperial House Law Concerning the Abdication of the Emperor and Other Matters on April 30, 2019, His Majesty the Emperor will abdicate on the same day and His Imperial Highness the Crown Prince will accede to the Throne on May 1, 2019.

2.It was decided at the Cabinet Meeting on April 1, 2019, that with the accession to the Throne of His Majesty the Emperor Naruhito, the new Japanese era be called "Reiwa" as from May 1, 2019.

The Ministry of Foreign Affairs avails itself of this opportunity to renew to the Diplomatic Missions and International Organizations the assurances of its highest consideration.

2019-02-20

anond:20190220105759

差別偏見増長になるので積極開示しないだけで、犯罪者になりやすい傾向、犯罪者になりやすい生育環境 ってのはある

例えば、発達障がい、中でもアスペCU特性(Callous-Unemotional Traits:無感覚感情的特徴)など

異常に親権の強い日本でも検査などは一応やってはい

ただ強制じゃないので、親の意識が相当高くないと、大学国立病院に足を運ぼうとはならないと思う

そもそも、親がこれだけ意識が高ければ、子が犯罪者になるとは考えにくい

犯罪者環境(特に親)+生まれつきの性質から

なお、犯罪者にならないサイコパス成功したサイコパスといい、

CEO外科医弁護士警察官シェフ などに多いそう

なおワイはサイコパス心拍数が低いのは顕著な傾向だと無批判に思ってきたが(例えばこういうの↓)

Am I a psychopath? You asked Googlehere’s the answer

If you’re not an athlete, and your heart rate is lower than average, you may be interested to discover that bradycardia, as it’s known, is more strongly correlated with psychopathy than smoking is with lung cancer.

That doesn’t mean everyone with a slow heart rate is a psychopath, but a very high percentage of psychopaths have slow heart rates.Why on earth would that be the case?

It turns out that there are a number of physiological traits strongly linked to psychopathy, including tell-tale patterns of activation in the brain and autonomic nervous system.

One theory is that psychopaths inherit a set of genes that make it harder to experience fear or excitement.

適当

Googleサイコパス のことを聞いてみた結果

心拍数が低い=サイコパスではないが、アスリートでもないのに心拍数が低いのはサイコパスの傾向が高いよ

脳と自律神経の働き方に特徴があり、恐怖や興奮などの刺激が感じにくいのではと考えられているよ

今日、改めてググってみたら、

今までの研究サンプル数が少ないのでやり直してみたら、サイコパス特別心拍数が低い とか無かったよってあったわ

ほえ〜

Resting heart rate and psychopathy: Findings from the Add Health Survey

引用元https://www.biorxiv.org/content/10.1101/205005v3


Despite the prior linkages of low resting heart rate to antisocial behavior broadly defined, less work has been done examining possible associations between heart rate to psychopathic traits.

(中略)

No significant relationship between heart rate and psychopathic traits, or heart rate and a measure of cold heartedness, was found after controlling for age, sex, and race.

2019-02-05

遅まきながら、転生したくなってrustでwebassemblyなんか始めてみようと職場PCで内職開始。。。のはずがWSLでrustup-intがうまくいかない。

proxy環境からかな?と思うもそれならcurlでこけるはずだ。

default host tripleという聞きなれない設定がstable-x86_64-"unknown"-linux-gnuからなのかとCustomize installationをいじるもうまくいかない。

なんやねん、一生java6で腐ってろと言う貧乏神なのかと毒づいたら下記に書いてあった。

https://github.com/rust-lang/rustup.rs/issues/1529

"The situation has been occured in the office, which has proxy and self-trusted certificate."

...やっぱり自社のプロキシ問題かよ。MTTMで今もばっちり解析されているのかよ。オレオレとかまじやめてよ。。

書いてあるとおり、git config http.sslVerify false入力したらばっちりうまくいった。

@sshplendidさんはどうやって気づいたのだろう。あなたは神だ。最高。

。。。環境構築に手間取りすぎて早くも心が折れそう。今日は帰る。

2019-01-31

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一緒に住んでるのに日曜日しか子どもに会えない

同級生が朝早くから夜遅くまで働いて、疲れ果てて土曜はずっと寝てて

子どもと顔を合わせるのは日曜日だけ、という話を聞くとき


今日日本で全人格労働を求められることが広く知られている中で

起業することもなく既存企業で働いていくことを、選んだのだから

自己責任だと考えていた。


共に深夜まで働いて、家族計画をたてられない夫婦をみるとき

その生活を選んだのは本人であるから自己責任であると思っていた。


Cortezの立場をとるなら、これは公民権問題であって、自己責任ではない。

子どもを持ちたいと願いながら、それが叶わない生活の中に制限されているのは

最低限文化的生活を営む権利毀損されていることであるから

これらは基本的人権問題だった。



コルテスのスピーチ和訳はここ

| 【全訳】米国史上最年少の女性下院議員キング牧師ばりの演説

| https://courrier.jp/news/archives/150572/



コルテスのスピーチyoutubeはここ

| Watch Alexandria Ocasio Cortez’s Inspiring Women’s March Speech | NowThis

| https://youtu.be/TNJZhuZCYow



スピーチ全文文字起こしが見つからなかったからやった

Hello! Thank you. New York City!

Thank you all.

Are you all ready to make a ruckus?

Are you all ready to fight for our rights?

Are you all ready to say that in the United States of America everyone is loved, everyone deserves justice, and everyone deserves equal protection and prosperity in our country.


It is such an honor to be here, and I don’t think it’s a coincidence that we’re gathering here today, the weekend before Martin Luther King Day.

Because I believe this moment and where we are right now is a resurgence from where the civil rights movement left off.

And we are here to carry the torch forward.

Because when we talked about racial and economic justice, racial and social justice, we started to really extend those issues to the issues of economic justice, environmental justice, and the intersectionality and interconnectedness of all our fights.


Justice is not a concept we read about in a book.

Justice is about the water we drink, justice is about the air we breathe.

Justice is about how easy it is to vote.

Justice is about how much ladies get paid.

Justice is about if we can stay with our children after we have them for a just amount of time – mothers, fathers, and all parents.

Justice is about making sure that being polite is not the same thing as being quiet.

In fact, oftentimes the most righteous thing you can do is shake the table.


Last year we took the power to the polls.

And this year, we’re taking power to the policy, because we have taken back the House of Representatives.

And that’s just step one.

This year we’re gonna organize.

This year we’re gonna fight for voting rights.

This year we’re gonna keep pushing, because 2020, we took – in 2018 we took the House of Representatives, and through 2020, we’re gonna take the White House and Senate, too.


That’s what we’re gonna do because we need to advance and fight for an America where all people are welcome and no people are left behind.

And I know that while this year has been historic, there’s a lot more congresswomen left here in this audience right now.

There’s a lot more city councilwomen.

There’s a lot more workers that will be building businesses.

There’s a lot more – and I know that there’s a future president out here, too.


Let us remember that a fight means no person left behind.

So when people want to stop talking about the issues

that Black women face,

when people want to stop talking about the issues

that trans women or immigrant women face,

we gotta ask them, why does that make you so uncomfortable?


Because now, this is the time that we’re gonna address poverty.

This is the time we’re gonna address Flint.

This is the time we’re gonna talk about Baltimore & the Bronx, and wildfires, and Puerto Rico.

Because this is not just about identity, this is about justice.

And this is about the America that we are going to bring into this world.

Thank you all very, very much.

2019-01-29

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2019-01-27

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SV

I laughed.

me.laugh()

疑問の余地がなく正しいと思う。

SVO

I have a pen.

me.has(new Pen())

「所有している」はメソッドでは表現できないと思う。

meオブジェクトメンバーpenがいる、とUMLかなんかで表現するしかなさそう。

SVC

It's a pen.

it.isA(Pen)

It is a Pen継承関係表現する?

He looks happy.

him.looks(Feeling.HAPPY)

him.looks()をコールしたらFeeling.HAPPYが返ってくる方が正確?

でも人によって感じ方違うしな・・・

SVOO

I gave my brother a chocolate

me.gives(me.brother, new Chocolate())

難しい。合ってると思う。

SVOC

I made my brother my wife

me.makes(me.brother, new Wife(me))

難しい。

that

which (非制限用法)

読めない(´・ω・`)

2019-01-24

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I am a high school student who has not read books until recently, but Japanese is difficult.

In the flow of conversation, I told to the senior lady of part-timer job that

"If you can use a PC, it's amazing for your age". Then she got angry.

Perhaps, it occuered because that I have rarely read a book.

The choice of word is difficult for me.

2019-01-22

[] Japanese research and development collapsed by the Chinese government

It is not acceptance of immigration as a labor force population to save the country from GDP reduction due to population reduction.

Many of the simple labor supplemented with foreign workers can be automated by computer.

By raising technological innovation in supercomputers and artificial intelligence development, increasing the productivity by fully automating the factory, increasing the productivity by means of the automation of the store by the AI ​​monitoring system leads to economic growth and it is not necessary to easily accept immigrants.

The key to supercomputer operation is "power consumption", while the U.S. and U.S. are fighting for supercomputing on the basis of computing capacity, Japan is always supercomputer with a low power supercomputer ranking, "Green 500" It is contained.

Japan has high technical capability in low power consumption supercomputer.

The third superior in "Green 500" in June, 2018 is supercomputer using Japanese PEZY computing technology led by Mr. Motoaki Saito.

However, there were only a few media to cover about this low power consumption type supercomputer technology that the US and China seek pursued behind PEZY's "grant fraud" report.

 

 

[中国] 中国政府に潰される日本研究開発 https://anond.hatelabo.jp/20190122195754

2019-01-21

Life ended without knowing what I want to do.

I always ran away from a childhood.

My parents taught me to say "Yoshie" to myself who are only looking at the neighboring children playing from where they are playing. It means that if you write in kanji "wanna be", I want you to put it in a group. At last I never said it.

I was just playing inside the house. I did not get bored because the books and games were given as such. Although I was only watching TV when I was doing animation or special effects, I did not get interested in dramas and song programs.

Kindergarten and elementary school were pitch dark jungle. There are lurid animals lurking around, and it gets bitten when it gets out of hand. They are laughed at by "friends" who do not know their faces and names, are faced with confusion, have remembered remembered.

Because I do not know what will come up in the classroom, I wandered around the school looking for a hiding place. I was afraid to blink because I do not know what to do if my eyes are closed.

When I went to public middle school as it is, I decided to pursue an advanced school at my parent's discretion that he must be killed. I did not know exactly what the school was going to do, but as a result of trying hard as I said, I caught somewhat over there.

I do not know whether public was a good because I do not know public. The classmate was still a flock of beasts, but there was no prominent bad group. There was a big library, so I arrived at the vacant time. The secondhand bookstore in the way back was also a favorite place. It took about an hour from the house by bus, but it was exactly good to read a book and sometimes got over it.

Although it is an advanced school that entered with great difficulty, I do not remember having worked hard on my studies. During the class we did nothing but graffiti in the textbooks and drew the accumulated delusions in secret notes. Although I had the opportunity to choose club activities after enrollment, I was told that my partner in the department I tried to join was left with a promise for the first time as it was. Since it was consistent in middle and high level, there was no break and only the number of the grade increased.

Although I heard that it seems that they will go to university after going out of high school, I did not understand the mechanism of the exam and so on, so I did not distinguish between the mock test and the center exam. Because I was not particularly conscious of which university I wanted to go to, I received the appropriate undergraduate properly for my grades.

I went to the national state of the neighboring prefecture and got a remittance and started living by my own apartment. It was quite a city compared to the mountain and the rural family of the rice fields, but the main use was Super, Hundred Hundred, and a secondhand bookstore old game store. I was thinking only how to live within a given amount of money without doing a part-time job.

Every lecture was interesting, and the library was big. I also touched on computers and the Internet for the first time. However, it was only in truics that gathered up, and I did not know what to aim for.

People around me were no longer beasts at this time, but I could not feel like approaching from myself. Some people call me out and I also tried circle activities, but eventually I did not last long for any relationship. It seemed to be crushed by a feeling of disgust for myself who flew in association with people and inferiority complex to a person advancing with dreams and goals.

The graffiti of the note was continued, but the more I wrote the more I could show my emptiness. The setting and design I thought was original was only imitation of someone. Both love and ideal were words alone, I did not believe anything.

While taking a stroller while taking a unit, I could not write a thesis. I can not think of any theme I want to study. I could not see anything I wanted to do, I should do, I could do nothing. I knew there was no head like I could go to the hospital and I could not do anything that could help society with what I learned.

I smuggled without meaning suddenly in my assigned laboratory, graduated after two years of retirement. I submitted a graduation thesis that just briefly gathered texts gathered with books and the net as it was given to the professor, and escaped to my parents house.

Because I can not just stay in bed at home, I started job hunting, but there is no reason to find a company that only has a college graduate title, there are companies that hire people who do not even know the jobs that I want to do but I do not know. I decided to work hourly as a food warehouse in the neighboring town according to the advice that it is good anywhere as it is supposed to work after trying it. It was supposed to be for the moment, but it has been ten years as it is.

Physical labor was painful but I got used to it for years. Basically it's not necessary to use your head as it just moves boxes according to written numbers. There are people in the surroundings, but there is no talk except a morning greeting and trouble report. Many boxes are shipped everyday, but the buyer knows only the name written on the label. I just keep carrying boxes.

The salary is also about that, as it is a job that also works for student part-time jobs. Thanks to my hometown my savings were somewhat sad, but if there is a big expenditure due to sickness etc. it will easily be erased. I should have searched for another job, but I could not move my mind if I thought that I could do other work for myself struggling even such an easy job.

There is no dissatisfaction with the daily life itself. I do not have to worry about eating and if I am playing games with candy at home if I have stress on work I can solve it. There is no reason to stick to clothes and grooming as I never see anyone outside the company. Especially there are no places to go and nobody wants to see. I do not drink it, do not hit it, do not buy it.

It turned 40 years old. Although I told you to be a fairy when I was alone after passing 40, this may actually be such a fairy town. Instead of struggling, new things do not happen. Like a light rainy afternoon, quietly just waiting for the night.

This week was a similar week as last week. It will be the same next week. Every day next month and next year, days that do not change will continue. In the meantime parents fall down. And then. There is only a big event left in life anymore.

I think that my life has already ended. I am not dead alone, I am not alive. You can set as many small targets as you want, but it will never lead to something else.

Even though I thought what I wanted to do, I did not understand it after all. I feel a little sad when I think that it is born empty and die empty.

 

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