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2021-08-04

3日目からずっと頭の中で「The Pantom of the Opera」がループしてる

ずっとファントムクリスティーヌが歌ってる

そんでyoutube動画コメ欄

The Phantom: “SING FOR ME!!!”

Christine: “Wtf do you think I’ve been doing for the past 3 minutes?”

っていうコメント思い出してフフってなってる

2021-06-21

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メンがヘラっている人が自分母親だって事実自体子どもにとって重たい呪いなんだ

I Am a Mother With a History of Self-Harm

https://themighty.com/2017/10/mother-history-of-self-harm/

 

Hello

I deeply admire your courage to keep it together as you parent. I’ve been there. I’m still there!

I’d like to raise a really sensitive issue. It might be a good idea to think through how your daughter will react to your scars as a tween or teenager. It’s great that you’ve decided to explain it to her. Secrets are never good. No doubt she will become a compassionate adult as a result. However she may need you to cover your scars as she gets older. Teenagers are hyper concerned about fitting in with their peers and she might feel embarrassed by them, not wanting to answer awkward questions.

My mother self harmed very badly. Her forearms were very scarred and I was self conscious about it. I would ask her to cover up, but she said she was ok with it and that I should be accepting and ‘get over it’.

I don’t want to be a downer,, or upset you, but I felt I ought to tell my story so that you might be able to navigate things when she gets to that age.

2020-11-04

K-POP起源ジャニーズだという松本潤発言炎上について

https://variety.com/2020/music/news/arashi-bruno-mars-english-single-1234798724/

Even though K-pop is exploding globally, Jun says he harbors no hard feelings.

“I feel no sense of the kind of tribalism that some people might imagine, but rather a sense of pride that the architecture that Johnny laid the foundations for decades ago is now finally starting to cross borders. Even if it’s not being done by Johnny, per se, the legacy still continues and is alive and well. You can see the flowers taking root in other cultures and countries,” he says.

BTSなどのK-POP北米市場での成功について、ジャニー喜多川が基礎を築いたもの国境をこえて花開いて良かった的な発言松潤がしたわけだが、

K-POP起源ジャニーズにあると主張しているといって韓国ドルオタの間で炎上している。

いやいやいや、アホくさ、グループアイドルビジネス起源ジャニーズなのは事実からって話。

 

K-POP創始者はS.M. Entertainment Co., Ltd.(BoA東方神起事務所)の創業者である李秀満氏で、氏はジャニーズ事務所システムを参考にしたと公的発言している。

また、同じ事務所NCTというボーイズグループAKBシステムを参考にしているとも言われている。

日本の丸パクリではない点として、日本アイドル事務所ボーイズ事務所ガールズの事務所ではっきりと分かれていることが多い。

しか韓国事務所は男女が分かれておらず、「SMTOWN LIVE」など同じ事務所所属する男女のアイドルが合同でコンサートを行ったりする。

AKBシステムを、NCTというハイスキルボーイズグループ採用する点も、アイドルビジネスに男女の垣根がない例と言える。

NCT動画はぜひ検索してみて欲しい(特に"NCT U 엔시티 유 '일곱 번째 감각 (The 7th Sense)' MV"はアイドルソングとは到底思えず奇妙)。

AKBのような低スキルのワチャワチャではなく、ハイスキルであり若干怖いパフォーマンスである。ただ、収益化のシステムAKBなのだ

 

韓国アイドルのほうが歌唱力ダンススキルが優れている。日本アイドルSMAPをはじめとして韓国よりもバラエティ対応力が強みになっている傾向がある。

日本地上波バラエティを全く観なくなって久しい人間はてなには多いだろうが、ジャニーズバラエティスキルが高いし、お笑い芸人渡り合い、身体を張ることも厭わないのだ。

事務所能力韓国のほうが高いだろう。まずITリテラシーが韓国事務所のほうが高い。

韓国という国の規模的に、国内音楽市場だけでは経営が成り立たないので、ITを最大限に活用して日本中国北米音楽市場を狙う必要性があった。

その努力北米で初めて実った例がBTSである日本国内音楽市場が大きいので、北米を取る努力をする必要性が無かった。

起源ジャニーズにあるが、ジャニーズ(そしてAKB)の仕組みを踏み台にして、より高いレベルパフォーマンスを実現して、アジア人アイドルが初めて北米を取れたのがK-POPである

また、アジア系人種なら誰でもという感覚多国籍リクルーティングするのもK-POP独自性である

NCTのTEN(タイ人)とNCTのSHOTARO(日本人)のダンスアイドルレベルではない。ダンス経験者にこそ調べて観て欲しいものだ。

 

起源論にあまり意味はない。起源であるジャニーズショタコンパフォーマンス現在K-POPクオリティ差分には非常に大きな価値があるからである

現在K-POPクオリティは、「ショタコンゲイ」ではないノンケ男性でも圧倒される迫力がある。もちろん女性アイドルパフォーマンスも、敬意を表さざるをえない迫力である

松潤も“I’ve definitely heard ‘Dynamite’ quite a few times,”と発言している。基本的K-POPに対して敵対的ではなく友好的である

それに対してのこのくだらない炎上。ただただ馬鹿げているとしかいいようがなく、なぜ韓国人は同国人である李秀満発言すら読まないのか、

ジャニー喜多川(無から有を生んだ非常に創造的な人物でもあるが少年愛犯罪者でもある)が発明したものを、

大きく発展させ成功させたという韓国事務所の功績部分について誇りを持てないのか、ただそのナイーブさに呆れるばかりである

2020-10-16

How to make pasta at home

My favorite 4-ingredient homemade pasta recipe — easy to make by hand, in a stand mixer, or in a food processor. Plus tips on how to roll out your pasta by hand or using a pasta maker.

The inspiration for it all began on our trip to the Amalfi Coast this spring, where Barclay and I became wholeheartedly convinced that we needed more 100%-from-scratch Italian food happening here at home in our little kitchen. Stat. So Barclay set his sights on perfecting homemade mozzarella this spring (more on that to come) and I came home ready to dive into the world of homemade pastas, gnocchis, and breads of all kinds. I even broke my minimalist no-new-kitchen-appliances-while-we’re-in-Europe rule and brought home an adorable little traditional pasta maker and wooden drying rack to make our pasta dreams come true.

Turns out, homemade pasta is even more delightful — and easy and delicious and fun — than I expected!

First off, the fresh pasta dough itself is a breeze to make. If you happen to own a food processor, the dough can be prepped in less than 5 minutes. (Or you can make it by hand or in a stand mixer in less than 15 minutes.) The process of rolling out the noodles is also easier than I expected, especially once I got the hang of using my little pasta maker. (I’ve included instructions below as well for how to roll out pasta using a stand mixer or a rolling pin by hand.) I’ve also enjoyed experimenting with the various different pasta flours and discovering which ones I like best for different occasions. (Short answer — I prefer “00” flour most of the time, but occasionally mix it with semolina for heartier shapes or sauces.) Mostly, though, we’ve just enjoyed eating fresh pasta. It has such a delicious, fresh, chewy, unmistakable bite to it. And it has instantly kicked some of our favorite pasta recipes up a mega notch. (Here’s lookin’ at you, cacio e pepe!)

Also fun? Inviting a group of girlfriends over on a Friday night to share a bottle of rosé as we roll out a batch of homemade pasta together. And having leftover linigune in the fridge to pull out for a quick dinner on a busy weeknight. And surprising friends and neighbors with a tupperware full of cute little fresh pasta nests as gifts. And being “that home” that now has fresh pappardelle casually draped and drying by our sunny living room window.

I’m loving it all. And if you also happen to be a fan of really good pasta, I have a feeling this might be your new favorite thing too.

So to continue with Italian Week here on the blog today, I am sharing everything I’ve learned so far about the art of making some seriously delicious homemade pasta. I’ve tried to include lots of different methods and options to work with whatever you have in your kitchen. So please poke around and find whatever method works best for you — and report back if you give homemade pasta a try! I would love to hear how it goes.

HOMEMADE PASTA RECIPE | 1-MINUTE VIDEO

Semolina Flour

HOMEMADE PASTA INGREDIENTS:

Alright, to make 1 pound of classic homemade egg pasta, you will need the following pasta ingredients:

Flour: I really love to make my homemade pasta with “00” flour, which yields the silkiest pasta. But if I am making a sauce that is a bit more hearty, I will use half “00” and half semolina flour, which makes the pasta a bit more sturdy and helps the sauce to cling to the pasta better. That said, any of these three flours (or a combination of them) will work with this recipe:

“00” flour: My personal favorite, which makes the texture extra silky.

Semolina flour: A heartier flour, which can help the pasta cling better to the sauce. (Semolina is also my favorite flour to sprinkle on the cutting board and pasta, while you are in the process of rolling out the dough.)

All-purpose flour: Also works pretty well if this is the only flour you have on hand.

Eggs: This recipe calls for four large eggs.

Olive oil: This will also help to moisten the dough. (If the dough is still too dry, you can also add in a few teaspoons of water.)

Sea salt: We will add a teaspoon of fine sea salt to the recipe, plus I recommend adding a little extra to your pasta water when cooking the pasta.

2019-08-23

非モテ絶望

When you say it’s gonna happen “now

Well when exactly do you mean?

See I’ve already waited too long

And all my hope is gone


You shut your mouth

How can you say

I go about things the wrong way?

I am human and I need to be loved

Just like everybody else does

2016-04-14

detox

Toxins are everywhere. Car exhaust, secondhand smoke, flame retardants, plastic packaging, heavy metals, pesticides, BPA-coated receipts… Unless you’re living in virgin forest, you’re going to come into contact with some less-than-optimal chemicals pretty much every day.

That’s definitely no reason to panic. In fact, small doses of toxins may be good for you because of a phenomenon called hormesis – mild stress makes your cells work more efficiently. However, your body can have trouble clearing certain toxins. You eliminate most of the bisphenol-A (BPA) and other plastics you ingest, but a small percentage hides away in your fat cells, messing with your hormones and accumulating over time. It’s the same deal with several mold toxins, heavy metals like lead, nickel, cadmium, mercury, and aluminum, and with certain pharmaceuticals and drugs like THC.

A good detox protocol can help you eliminate these more stubborn toxins. The trouble is that many common detoxes don’t work. Juice and water cleanses, for example, are often actually counterproductive because they deprive your body of essential nutrients it needs to function. That said, there are a few genuine ways to detox.

Because so many toxins stay in your fat cells, one way to detox is through lipolysis – breaking down your fat cells and releasing the hard-to-reach toxins stored within them. Lipolysis is especially effective when you combine it with liver and kidney support or adsorbents that can suck up the released toxins. This article focuses on all of the above. Let’s start with saunas.

1) Sauna sessions

Sweating does more than cool you off. It also helps you get rid of both heavy metals and xenobiotics – foreign compounds like plastics and petrochemicals – in small but significant amounts. A 2012 review of 50 studies found that sweating removes lead, cadmium, arsenic, and mercury, especially in people with high heavy metal toxicity [1]. Another study put participants in both traditional and infrared saunas and found similar results [2]. Sweating also eliminates hormone-disrupting BPA, which accumulates in your fat cells [3].

There’s debate about the best kind of sauna for detoxification. A couple studies have shown that infrared saunas are the most effective for detoxing, but the research was funded by infrared sauna companies, so the results are questionable. Both traditional and infrared saunas are effective for detoxing [2]. That said, I prefer infrared saunas for a few reasons:

They don’t get as hot. Traditional saunas heat the air around you, while infrared light penetrates and heats your tissue directly. You sweat in an infrared sauna at around 130-150 degrees instead of at 180-200 degrees, so you can stay in for longer without feeling like you’re going to pass out. I’ve done 2-hour infrared sauna sessions (drinking salt water the whole time to replenish electrolytes and fluids, of course).

They’re easier on your electric bill. Again, infrared saunas require less energy, especially if you get a sauna that reflects infrared light back on you. This one, for example, costs about 15 cents an hour to run.

Infrared saunas are often cheaper.

I personally use a Sunlighten infrared sauna and love it. If you don’t want to buy an infrared sauna and there isn’t one around you, a standard sauna will work perfectly well [2]. There’s probably one in your local gym.

Keep in mind that sweating pulls electrolytes and trace minerals from your body, so it’s important to drink a lot of fluids and get plenty of salt (preferably Himalayan pink salt or another mineral-rich natural salt) if you’re going to use a sauna to detox [2].

2) Exercise

Exercise is another way to flush toxins from your body, and through more than just making you sweat. Exercise increases lipolysis (the breakdown of fat tissue), releasing toxins stored in your fat tissue. Studies show that people who exercise and lose body fat end up with higher levels of circulating hormone disruptors [4]. Increasing lipolysis through diet does the same thing [5].

Mobilizing toxins isn’t necessarily a good thing, particularly if you’re unequipped to get rid of them. You want to be sure you’re getting rid of toxins, not just moving them to a different part of your body. Working out addresses the issue to a degree: it improves circulation, providing more oxygen to your liver and kidneys so they can better filter out toxins. You can also give your system even more support and pull out bad stuff with the next two detox tools: activated charcoal and glutathione.

3) Activated charcoal

Activated charcoal is a form of carbon that has massive surface area and a strong negative charge. It’s been around for thousands of years and it’s still used in emergency rooms today to treat poisoning.

Charcoal binds to chemicals whose molecules have positive charges, including aflatoxin and other polar mycotoxins [6], BPA [7], and common pesticides [8]. Once the chemicals attach to the charcoal you can pass them normally (i.e. poop them out).

Charcoal can bind to the good stuff, too, so I don’t recommend taking it within an hour of other supplements. Try taking a couple charcoal pills along with exercise or have a sauna session. They should adsorb many of the toxins you release into your gut and GI tract.

4) Glutathione

Glutathione is a powerful antioxidant that protects you from heavy metal damage, according to studies in both human and rat cells [9,10,11,12]. Glutathione also supports liver enzymes that break down mold toxins and heavy metals. Your digestion will destroy normal glutathione, so opt for a liposomal glutathione supplement that makes it through your stomach. You can also supplement with N-acetylcysteine and alpha-lipoic acid, which your body can use to build glutathione on its own [13]. If you have severe heavy metal or mycotoxin poisoning, talk to a naturopath or functional medicine doctor about intravenous (IV) glutathione. It’s expensive and less convenient than an oral supplement, but it works very well.

5) Cryolipolysis

We’ve talked about how heat and exercise can increase fat burning to detox your fat cells. It turns out cold can do the same. Cryochambers are gaining popularity with professional athletes and other high performers for their ability to quell inflammation. It turns out they can help you burn fat – and release the toxins stored in itas well.

A cryochamber uses liquid nitrogen to supercool your body, stimulating mitochondrial function and decreasing inflammation. Intense cold also destroys fat cells, which has led to cryolipolysis therapy as a way to slim down [14,15]. You can use it to detox, too.

Can’t get your hands on a cryochamber? Try traditional cold thermogenesis instead.

6) Ketosis

Quick disclaimer: I haven’t found studies specifically looking at ketosis and toxin load, so you may want to take this section with a grain of (Himalayan) salt. That said, ketosis is a very effective way to induce lipolysis, particularly if you’re fasting.

When you’re in ketosis and you haven’t eaten recently, your body breaks down your fat stores into free fatty acids, which it then converts to ketones for fuel. That means that, in theory, you should be able to supercharge your detox (and fat loss) by dropping into nutritional ketosis.

The Bulletproof Diet puts you into mild ketosis, which curbs your hunger and sharpens your brain without forcing you to forego carbs entirely. If you want to try nutritional ketosis for detoxing, youll have to modify the Bulletproof Diet slightly. Skip carb reefed days for a couple weeks and limit carbs to ~30-50 grams per day. You can use keto urine strips or – even better – a blood ketone meter to test and make sure you’re becoming fat-adapted. Once your levels read around 1.5 mg/dL, you’re comfortably in nutritional ketosis. At that point, fasting will attack your fat stores and mobilize toxins, which you can mop up with activated charcoal or sweat out (or both).

7) Chelation therapy for heavy metals

Chelation therapy is the strongest way to detox heavy metals. It can also be dangerous, so many doctors don’t recommend it unless you have moderate to severe heavy metal poisoning. Chelation therapy uses compounds called chelators that form strong bonds with heavy metals, leaving them unable to further poison your body. You can then pass them normally. Chelation therapy is very effective for removing lead, mercury, aluminum, arsenic, iron, and copper.

If you’ve been exposed to a lot of heavy metals, talk to a functional medicine doctor about chelation therapy. You really want to go to a medical professional for this one, because it’s so effective that if your liver and kidneys aren’t able to process the metals (a common problem in people with heavy metal poisoning) you can get seriously ill.

Combining detox methods for maximum effect

Each of these 7 methods works well on its own, and you can stack methods for an even greater effect. Exercise and sauna sessions are a good example. Preliminary evidence suggests that exercising and then hitting the sauna afterward will detoxify you better than either one alone does [16]. With that in mind, here’s a sample detox protocol:

Take 2-3 mL liposomal glutathione and 2-3 g vitamin C an hour before exercising.

Exercise for at least 20-30 minutes (HIIT is a good option).

Take 3-4 activated charcoal pills.

Spend 45-60 minutes in a sauna. Remember to get plenty of water and salt/electrolytes.

If you have a lot of fat and you’re burning it off quickly, you’re probably getting rid of a lot of toxins in one fell swoop, and you may get a headache, digestive problems, brain fog, etc. If that happens try taking more glutathione, vitamin C, and charcoal. Be sure you take charcoal at least an hour away from other supplements, as it binds to vitamin C.

Toxins are a fact of modern life, especially if you live in a city or somewhere with poor air quality, mold, and/or a lot of petrochemical byproducts. These detox methods can give your body a little extra support dealing with pollutants and help you perform your best.

Subscribe below if you want more info about how to upgrade your body and brain. Thanks for reading and have a great week!

2007-01-31

ブログなんてクソしかないんだ」

「そんなことないよ」

I knowI know I’ve let you down

「そうだとしても、玉に当たることが滅多にない。本当に、ないんだ」

「それでも、絶対に玉はあるんだよ」

I’ve been a fool to myself

I thought that I could

live for no one else

「ぼくの目の前に広がるのは、いつも瓦礫ばかりなんだ。ぼくは、そう、絶望している」

「じゃあ一緒にさがそうよ!」

But now through all the hurt & pain

「……」

「一緒にさがそうよ……」

「……嫌だ」

沈黙

It’s time for me to respect the ones you love mean more than anything

アンチWWWフィールドが広がる。

「私はひとりでもさがすよ。ネットのこと、大好きだから」

So with sadness in my heart

I feel the best thing I could do is end it all and leave forever

「嘘だ!」

「ほんとだよ」

「嘘だっ! ブログには何もないんだ! 空っぽ洞窟なんだよ! ひとの感情をネタにして弄んで、またひとつ不愉快な思いして、何になるっていうんだよ!」

「そうやって、人の気持ちを踏みにじってきたのね」

クネクネだとか、プロレスだとか、意味のわからないニヤニヤ笑いが僕を追いつめるだけだ。だったら何もしないほうがいい」

「そうやって、自分の耳を塞いできたのね」

2chにひどいことされたんだ。ブログmixiも、誰も僕にやさしくしてくれないんだ」

「そうやって、何もかもひとのせいにしてきたのね」

what’s done is done it feels so bad

what once was happy now is sad

I’ll never love again my world is ending

「何を願うの?」

「何を望むの?」

「……」

「そのためにあなたは何をしてきたの?」

「そのためにあなたは何ができるの?」

「……」

I wish that I could turn back time

’cause now the guilt is all mine

can’t live without the trust from those you love

「自分が好きなのね。好きで好きで、だから嫌いといわれるのがつらいのね」

「……」

「そうやって、嫌なものを全部排除しようと、子供みたいにぐずっているのね」

「……はてなユーザーのくせに! なんにもわかってないくせに!」

I know we can’t forget the past

you can’t forget love & pride because of that, it’s kill in me inside

はてなだからどうだってぇのよ! あんたが今ここで何もしなかったら、私、許さないからね。一生、あんたを許さないからね!」

「……」

「今の自分が絶対じゃないわ! 後で間違いに気付き、後悔する。わたしはそれの繰り返しだった。ぬか喜びと自己嫌悪を重ねるだけ、でも、そのたびに前に進めた気がする」

「……」

「もう一度、ブログを書いてケリをつけなさい。ブログを書いてきた自分に、何のためにブログを書いたのか、何のためにブログを書くのか、今の自分の答えを見つけなさい。そして、ケリをつけたら、一緒に面白いものをさがしにいきましょう」

「……んっ!」

「……大人のキスよ。帰ってきたら、続きをしましょ」

 

カタカタと響くタイプ音。嗚咽が入り交じりながらも、その音には一抹の決意が感じられた。

「ぼくをゆるしてください。あなたは、ぼくが何をしたらゆるしてくれますか」

終劇

 
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