磐田サポーターの間では、Jリーグ設立時に磐田の前身であったヤマハ発動機がJSL一部（当時）屈指の強豪であったにもかかわらず、「市民球団」を標榜する清水に参加権をさらわれた、という意識が未だに根強く、清水戦を特別視する人も多い。一方、清水サポーターはサッカー王国・清水としてサッカー文化が根付き各年代に代表選手を送り込み“サッカー王国”といわれる静岡を牽引してきたのは清水という自負がありJリーグ参加チームで唯一“サッカー王国静岡・清水”という名前のみで参戦できたことを誇りに思っている多くのサポーターがいる。

Jリーグ加盟に際して、ヤマハサッカー部も当初は初年度からの加盟を目指そうとした。しかし、清水市（現・静岡市）からも市民組織のクラブチーム・清水 FC（エスパルスの母体）が結成され、Jリーグ加盟を目標に立てていた。
だが全国大会の出場歴が全くなく、資金や選手補強などの面で劣る清水 FCに対し日本サッカー協会のプロ化検討会は経営資金力強化、並びに当時は静岡県に複数のチームを加盟するのは時期尚早ということでヤマハサッカー部とのチーム統合を提案するが、ヤマハはあくまでも単独チームでのJリーグ参加を目指すとしてこれを拒否。
またヤマハ自体もプロチーム設立へ向けた法人化の手続きや、ホームスタジアムの整備などの準備面で清水に遅れをとったのが災いし、結局初年度参加メンバーから落選することになる。ヤマハはこの後1992年に地元企業やマスコミ団体などとの協力によりプロ化を念頭に置いた「株式会社ヤマハフットボールクラブ」を設立し、1993年にジャパンフットボールリーグから Jリーグ昇格の権利（2位以内）が与えられる準会員制度の適用第1号（他日立→柏レイソル、フジタ→湘南ベルマーレ）となり、その年のリーグで準優勝してJリーグ昇格を決めた。

この時点においては清水エスパルスサポーター側にはジュビロ磐田に対する対抗意識はなかった。

しかしジュビロ磐田側にとってはＪリーグ加盟を奪われたと思われていた。

経営面や施設面で不備があったにもかかわらず…。

～1998年

1994年 4月6日初めての静岡ダービーが行われる。この試合は清水エスパルスが勝利した。

しかし、5月18日から 1996年 4月27日まで8連敗を喫する。

さらに、1997年にはジュビロ磐田が清水エスパルスよりも先にリーグ優勝をした。

このあたりから清水エスパルスサポーターに対抗意識が芽生えてきたようだ。

ちなみに初めて「蛍の光」を清水エスパルスに歌ったのが1994年 5月18日。以後ことあることに歌うようになる。

1999年

年間チャンピョンを決めるチャンピオンシップにて清水エスパルスがジュビロ磐田に負け初の年間優勝を逃す。

2005年

清水エスパルス降格の危機の際ジュビロ磐田サポーターが

「俺達は清水が滅ぶまで戦い続ける磐田を見て死ね」の横断幕を掲出する。

「A name of kingdom IWATA と　今までの獲得タイトル」を記した大型フラッグを掲出する。

「A shame of kingdom SHIMIZU　と　Empty?」を記した大型フラッグを掲出する。

「ジュビロ磐田と清水エスパルスのエンブレムを天秤に載せた」大型フラッグを掲出する。

ゲーフラでは「J2 死水」や「ROAD TO J2」などと掲出

「蛍の光」を合唱する。

2011年

「ゴトビへ核兵器作るのやめろ」の大型フラッグを掲出する。

この事件により清水エスパルスとジュビロ磐田のコアサポ間で行われていた交流がなくなる。

2013年

ジュビロ磐田降格の危機の際清水エスパルスサポーターが

「降格？嘘だよね？バーカアホメガネとジュビロくんの絵」の大型フラッグを掲出する。

「ジュビロ磐田のフラッグに穴をあけＪ２」と記したフラッグを掲出する。

「J2 チャレンジ一年生」「格下」「A Shame of Kingdom?（笑）」「片道切符の島流し」などとゲーフラを掲出する。

「勝利は続くよどこまでも」を合唱する。

おわりに

Yahoo ニュースのコメント欄にいろいろ書かれていたので増田してみました。

今回の出来事について当然賛否があることでしょう。

ただ、こういった歴史があったうえでのことなのです。

もしかしたらこれも静岡のサッカー文化なのかもしれません。

歴史は続いているのです過去があって今があり未来があるのです。

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2012-01-06

■How to use Digital camera battery

First the capacity of the battery life and said.

Battery capacity everybody can understand, is the capacity of the battery label printing! The greater the capacity to store electricity standby time more long more, but the battery life is put in charge of the circulat ion to describe, that is a charging a discharge for a cycle, now of the lithium ion battery general circulat ion 400 times the capacity of the nominal capacity is 50%-60%, professional predicate called attenuat ion rate, the capacity of the battery only nominal halfway through standby time and just bought at least by half, also is usually we the standby time behind mobile phone to the shorter and the last possible is a call to restart, it shows that capacity is too small, the battery with load ability is poor, and also to life! The above prove charging times and the battery life is to have a certain relat ionship! General filling a electric capacity will attenuat ion 1-5 ma (depending on the stand or fall of core).

Besides the new bought the phone charging time(PANASONIC DMW-BMB9 Battery)

General new buy the phone will be informed that the three twelve hours filling, must be finished filling again! The idea is to stay in about 98-2000, when most of the cell phone battery is nickel metal hydride battery, have memory effects! That is the nimh batteries in useless over electric power is charging, might remember situat ion, that didn't put out that part of it may be lost if not to do so might affect the battery of standby time, now a few call all the mobile phone use lithium ion battery now, does not exist have memory effects, say in the production of the battery will have at least 1-2 times charge-discharge, sold into our hands, the battery is activated, sure, twelve hours without charge, as for a few times before standby time slightly shorter that is normal, because the battery after a period of time capacity will have loss, filling put several recovery!

Besides charging methods (PANASONIC DMW-BCF10E Battery)

Normally will last one case electricity use up, cellular phone to start alarm can charge! Don't need to be automatic shutdown to filling! Because when the battery voltage alarm has been close to the automatic shutdown voltage! Charging tip can not only full! It need not long time filling, of course, have been filled, it doesn't matter, because the cell phone battery is protection board, full automatic stop after won't fill! But some fake except battery, a lot of false battery protection board is empty, doesn't work.

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2011-12-29

■Portable electronic equipment battery technology

1, about the trickle charge, rapid charging and stable battery charging algorithm

According to the energy requirements of the final application, a battery may contain up to 4 lithium ion or lithium polymer battery core, its configurat ion will have a variety of change, at the same time with a mainstream power adapter: direct adapter, USB interface or car charger. Remove the core quantity, core configurat ion or power adapter type difference, the battery has the same charge characteristics. So they charge algorithm. Lithium ion and li-ion polymer battery best charging algorithm can divided into three phases: trickle charge, rapid charging and stable charge.

trickle charge. For depth discharge core to charge. When core voltage in less than about 2.8 V, use a constant 0.1 C of the current charging for it.

fast charging. Core voltage trickle charge more than the threshold, improve the charging current rapid charging. Fast charging current should be lower than 1.0 C.

stable voltage. In the fast charging process, once the core 4.2 V voltage, stable voltage phase began. This is through the minimum charge current or timer or of the two joint to interrupt charge. When the minimum current below about 0.07 C, can interrupt charge. The timer is to rely on a default to trigger the timer interrupt.

Advanced battery charger with add it ional security function normally. For example, if the core temperature exceeds the given window, usually 0 ℃-45 ℃, charge will be suspended.

Remove some very low-end equipment, now on the market/li-ion polymer lithium ion battery solutions are integrated with the outer components or, in accordance with the characteristics of the charging to charge, this is not just to get better effect charge, but also for safety.

lithium ion/polymer battery charge is an example of applications-double input 1.2 A lithium battery charger LTC4097

LTC4097 can be used to exchange adapter or USB power supply for single quarter/polymer lithium ion battery. Figure 1 for double input 1.2 A lithium battery charger LTC4097 schemes. It USES constant current/constant voltage algorithm charging, from exchange adapter power charge, programmable filling up to 1.2 electric current A, and with USB power can be as high as 1 A, at the same time, automatic detection in each input voltage whether there. This device also provide USB the current limit. Applications include PDA, MP3 players, digital camera, light portable medical and test equipment and big color cellular phone. The performance characteristics: no external micro controller charging terminat ion; The input power automatic detection and choice; Through the resistance from the ex change of charging adapter input can be as high as 1.2 A programming charge current; The resistance of programmable USB charging current is up to 1 A; 100% or 20% USB charging current set; The input power output and existing bias NTC (VNTC) pin as a 120 mA drive ability; NTC thermistors input (NTC) pin for temperature qualified charged; Pre-settings battery voltage with floating plus or minus 0.6% accuracy; Thermal regulat ion maximize charge rate and free hot air LTC4097 can be used to exchange adapter or USB power supply for single quarter/polymer lithium ion battery. The use of constant current/constant voltage algorithm charging, from exchange adapter power charge, programmable filling up to 1.2 electric current A, and with USB power can be as high as 1 A, at the same time, automatic detection in each input voltage whether there. This device also provide USB the current limit. Applications include PDA, MP3 players, digital camera, light portable medical and test equipment and big color cellular phone.

2, lithium ion/polymer battery scheme

Lithium ion/polymer battery charge scheme for different number of core, core configurat ion, and power types are different. At present mainly have three main charging scheme: linear, Buck (step-down) switch and SEPIC (booster and step-down) switch.

2.1 linear scheme

When the input voltage in big with the charger with sufficient clearance of core after opening voltage, it is linear scheme, especially 1.0 C fast charging current than 1 A big too much. For example, MP3 players usually only one core, capac ity from 700 to 1500 mAh differ, full charge voltage is open 4.2 V. MP3 player power is usually the AC/DC adapter or USB interface, the output is the rule of 5 V; At this time, the linear scheme is the most simple, most charger of the efficiency of the scheme. Figure 2 shows for lithium ion/polymer battery solution linear scheme, basic structure and linear voltage neat device.

linear scheme charger application examples-double input Li + charger and intelligent power source selector MAX8677A

MAX8677A is double input USB/AC adapter linear charger, built-in Smart Power Selector, used for rechargeable single quarter by Li + batteries portable devices. The charger integrat ion of the battery and the external power source and load switch charging all the power switch, so that no external MOSFET. MAX8677A ideal used in portable devices, such as smart phones, PDA, portable media players, GPS navigat ion equipment, digital camera, and digital cameras.

MAX8677A can work in independent USB and the power input AC adapter or two input either one of the input. When connecting external power supply, intelligent power source selector allows the system not connect battery or can and depth discharge battery connect ion. Intelligent power source selector will automatic ally switch to the battery system load, use the system did not use the input power supply parts for battery, make full use of limited USB and adapter power supply input. All the needed electric current detection circuit, including the integrat ion of the power switch, all integrat ion in the piece. DC input current highest limit can be adjusted to 2 A and DC and USB input all can support 100 mA, 500 mA, and USB hung mode. Charge current can be adjusted to as high as 1.5 A, thus support wide range of battery capac itive. Other features include MAX8677A thermal regulat ion, over-voltage protection, charging status and fault output, power supply good surveillance, battery thermistors surveillance, and charging timer. MAX8677A using save a space, hot enhanced, 4 mm x 4 mm, 24 of the pins TQFN encapsulat ion, regulat ions, work in exceptional temperature range (40 ~ + 85 ℃).

2.2 Buck (step-down) switch scheme

When A 1.0 C of the charging current more than 1 A, or the input voltage of the core than with high voltage open many, Buck or step-down plan is A better choice. For example, based on the hard drive in the PMP, often use single core lithium ion battery, the full of open is 4.2 V voltage, capac ity from 1200 to 2400 mAh range. And now PMP is usually use the car kit to charge, its output voltage in a 9 V to 16 between V. In the input voltage and battery voltage is the voltage difference between high (minimum 4.8 V) will make linear scheme lowers efficiency. This kind of low efficiency, plus more than 1.2 A 1 C fast charging electric current, have serious heat dissipat ion problems. To avoid this kind of situat ion, will the Buck scheme. Figure 3 for lithium ion/polymer battery charger scheme Buck diagram, basic structure with Buck (step-down) switching voltage regulators completely the same.

2.3 SEPIC (booster and step-down) switch scheme

In some use of three or four lithium ion/polymer core series equipments, charger of the input voltage is not always greater than the battery voltage. For example, laptop computers use 3 core lithium ion battery, full charge voltage is open 12.6 V (4.2 V x3), capac ity is 1800 mAh to 3600 mAh from. Power supply input or output voltage is 1 6 V AC/DC adapter, or is car kit, the output voltage in a 9 V to 16 between V. Apparently, the linear and Buck solutions are not for this group of batteries. This is about to use SEPIC scheme, it can in the output voltage is higher than when the battery voltage, can be in the output voltage less than when the battery.

3, and power detection algorithm is proposed

Many portable products use voltage measurements to estimate the remaining battery power, but the battery voltage and surplus power relat ionship but will with the discharge rate, temperature and battery aging degree of change, make this kind of method can top 50% margin of error. The market for longer to use product demand unceasingly strengthens, so the system design personnel need more accurate solution. Use capac ity check plan come to measure battery or consumption of electric ity, will be in a wide range of application power to provide more accurate estimate of the battery power.

3.1 power detection algorithm is one of the examples of application, function complete list, double the battery portable battery application design

power detection principle. Good capac ity check plan at least to have battery voltage, temperature and battery electric current, measuring method; A micro 9 a; And a set of and the verific at ion of the punishment power detection algorithm is proposed. Bq2650x and bq27x00 is full capac ity check program function, with a measuring voltage and temperature of the digital converter (ADC) and a measuring electric current and charging sensor the asp. These capac ity check plan also has a microprocessor, is responsible for the implementat ion of the Texas instruments power detection algorithm is proposed. The algorithm can compensate the lithium ion battery life.low self-discharge, aging, the temperature and discharge rate, and other factors. Chip embedded microprocessor as host system processor save these calculat ion burden. Capac ity check program can provide remaining power state information, bq27x00 series products also offer surplus can Run Time (Run Time to Empty) host may at any Time to capac ity check plan these information query, then LED indic ator light through or displays will inform the user battery. Capac ity check meter is very easy to use, the system processor need only configurat ion 12 C or HDQ communic at ion drive can.

The battery circuit description. Figure 4 (a) can be used for identific at ion of IC functions with typical application circuit batteries. According to the use of IC testing program is different, the battery needs to have at least three to four outside the terminal.

VCC and BAT pins will even to the battery voltage, so that for, C power and the battery voltage measurement. The battery is connected a grounding resistance smaller detection resistors, let capac ity check meter high impedance SRP and SRN input can mon itor sensor resistance on both ends of the voltage. Through testing the current flows through a resistor can be used to judge the battery or release the amount of electric ity. Designers choose detection resistance value must be considered when resistance on both ends of the voltage can't more than 100 mV, low resistance may be more hours in current errors. Circuit board layout must ensure that SRP and SRN to testing from as close as possible to the connect ion of the resistor sensor resistance end; In other words, they should be the Kelvin attachment.

HDQ pin need external and resistors, this resistance should be located the host or the main application, such capac ity check plan to the battery and portable devices when sleep function enable connect ion broken. Advice and resistance choose 10 k Ω.

battery identific at ion. A low cost WeiMao batteries are getting more and more serious, these cells may not contain OEM requirements of security protection circuit. So, genuine battery may contain figure 4 (a) shows the appraisal circuit. When to identify the battery, the host to contain IC (bq26150, the function is cyclic redundancy check (CRC)) issued the battery packs a ask value (challenge), the CRC will contain battery according to this inquiry value and, in the building of the IC in CRC polynomial calculat ion the CRC value. CRC is based on the host of command and IC secret in the query of the definit ion of the CRC polynomial completed, the host in CRC values calculated with the calculat ion result of well battery comparison to identify the appraisal success.

Once the battery through the appraisal, bq26150 will issue commands to ensure that the host and quantity test plan of material lines between normal communic at ion. When the battery connect ion interruption or to connect, the whole the identific at ion process will be repeated again.

double the battery application. Figure 4 (b) for use bq26500 support double the typical application of lithium ion battery circuit. In order to support more battery, and this circuit is adding a adjustable regulators. Capac ity check millions of BAT pin and the bottom of a battery anode linked to complete the variable voltage measurement of the battery.

Host to be able to read capac ity check plan of variable voltage measurement battery, to make sure the end of discharging threshold and charging terminate threshold. As for the remaining state power (RemainingStateofCapac ity), do not need to read can use directly.

The above bq2650x and bq27x00 etc capac ity check plan provides the battery manufacturer a simple to use options, this scheme L [just measuring battery voltage to be precise, so these capac ity check plan can be applied to various battery framework, and can support the battery identific at ion and double the battery application '

3.2 power detection algorithm is an example of applications another, can apply to all kinds of general voltmeter new IC.

Today's many manufacturers can provide a variety of voltmeter IC,, the user can choose the suitable function device, to optimize the product price. Use voltmeter measurement of storage battery parameters, the separate architecture allows users in the host custom power measurement algorithm within. Eliminating embedded processor battery cost. On this to Dall ase semicconductor company called cases of DS2762 chip for typical analysis. A new separate voltmeter IC, its structure see chart 5 (a) below.

DS2762 application characteristics

DS2762 is a single quarter of lithium battery voltmeter and protection circuit, integrated into a tiny 2.46 mm x 2.74 mm inversion of packaging. Due to internal integrat ion for power detection of high precise resistance, this device is very save a space. It is the small size and incomparable high level of integrat ion, for mobile phone battery and other similar handheld products, such as PDA, etc, are all very ideal. Integrated protection circuit continuously mon itoring the battery voltage, over voltage and flow fault (charging or discharge period). Different from the independent protection IC, DS2762 allow main processor surveillance/control protection FET conduction state, such, can DS2762 through the protection of the power system and the control circuit implementat ion. DS2762 can also charge a battery consumption has depth, when the battery voltage within three V, provide a limit of the charging current recovery path.

DS2762 accurate mon itoring battery current, voltage and temperature, the dynamic range and resolution of common satisfy any mobile communic at ion product testing standards. The measurement of current for internally generated when the integral, realize the power measurement. Through the real-time, continuous automatic disorders correct, the precision of power measurement can be increased. The built-in measuring resistance due to eliminate manufacturing process and temperature and cause resistance change, further improve the precision of the voltmeter. Important data stored in 32 bytes, can add the lock EEPROM; 16 bytes of SRAM are used to keep dynamic data. And DS2762 all communic at ion all through the 1-Wire, more communic at ion interface node, minimize the battery and the connect ion to the host. Its main features for; Single quarter of lithium battery protector; High precision current (power measurement), voltage and temperature measurement; Optional integrated 25 m Ω measuring resistance, each DS2762 after fine-tuning alone; 0 V battery restore charge; 32 bytes can lock EEPROM, 16 bytes SRAM, 64 a ROM;

1-Wire, node, digital communic at ion interface; Support more battery power management, and through the protection system control FET power; Dormancy mode power supply current only 2 µ A (most); Work mode power supply current for 90 µ A (most); 2.46 mm x 2.74 mm inversion of packaging or 16 feet SSOP package led, and both are can choose with or without detection resistance; After has with e

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2011-09-08

■Feeling of the cat

Translated from http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20110907020451

For a long time, I am in a dark box.

According to someone's comment I heard outside of the box, a tiny bottle containing deadly poison is located in this box. Although the bottle is completely sealed, a hammer is positioned in the vicinity of the bottle. And they said the hammer would fall down at a certain time.

When is "the certain time"? I don't know. In this very moment? Or distant future? Possibly, it already has come (I don't want to think about it). No one can affect the hammer. As an independent event, it will fall down with probability 50%. The probability is exactly 50%. Possibly, the bottle may be broken, or may not. About myself, dead, or, alive.

I must say, how terrible the situation is.

It is impossible for me to avoid having a furious indignation. My life, the most important issue for me, is completely away from me, and is solely dependent on the simple figure, FIFTY PERCENT! Too much terrible.

Addition ally, and I think it is completely unreas onable, I am shackled in many ways to keep the probability at exactly 50%.

Visual perception. The box is completely shielded from any light. It's for avoiding me from finding and destroying the bottle and apparatus. Complete darkness. I am in the total darkness. Thus, now I can’t see even the outline of myself. Possibly it sounds strange, the darkness makes me have a doubt about the existence of my body itself.

Acoustic perception. Maybe, from the reason I mentioned above, a perfect sound insulation is used. I can’t hear even the voice of my own. I don't know the mechanism. In the first place, as I can’t see anything, how can I investigate it? So, this is only a speculation, possibly, my drum membranes were damaged before enclosure in this box, or, some special material is used for the wall of the box.

Anyway, in a dark box too much good at shielding light and sound, my visual and acoustic perception is dead just as the term indicates.

As if further confirmation are needed, a huge fatigue weighing heavily upon me is another shackle for me. It seems that they gave me some kind of muscle relaxant to avoid me from struggling. As I can’t change from the same posture, my tactile perception is almost paralyzed.

No light. No sound. Smell and taste are unreliable. Tactile perception is in malfunction. I am like a puppet. All the five senses are out of control of mine. Too much cruel. Perfect shackles. I wish if they had given a sleeping medicine. I feel I am in agony without any external injury. My life, my existence itself, is completely ignored. Such a humiliation keeps my sanity. Only such a humiliation can.

The right to control the life and death of myself is completely deprived. I hate such situation. The core determinant of the continuity of my life is completely dependent upon, solely upon, a pure probability. Completely away from anyone's will. I hate it, again, I hate it!

Why do I have to be enclosed in such a box? In such a ridiculous box, why do I have to be in fear of life and death with such perfect shackles?

Unreas onable. Cruel.

I am lonely. Am I feeling empty and flat? Difficult to avoid sobbing? No. My loneliness is much deeper. I am in a sea of void. I am alone. Completely alone. As an orphan, I was thrown into this endless darkness. I am quivering in the absolute zero.

There is no perspective in this box. Only the darkness is here. I can’t feel the bottle and the hammer. I can’t feel the wall, the bottom, and the ceiling neither. They should be there. But all the five senses of mine are deprived. I feel like there is nothing. While those things have some meanings.

Speaking honestly, I am not so sure I am in a box. I am sure that what I am exists. I am thinking. I am fantasizing. It is the evidence showing the uniqueness of mine, which is called the ego or the consciousness or the mind, is solid. But, is the uniqueness is truly enclosed in the box? Is it possible that it is floating in another space? I can’t eliminate such doubts.

Possibly, what I am here is floating in the end of the universe, or is lying down at the bottom of the Mariana Trench. Or going down from a vent of the Kilauea volcano, maybe.

I don't have any method to know how the box (enclosing me) is. All the senses of mine are dead. It is impossible for me to determine whether here is inside of a box or not.

In addition to that, I am not so sure that I am truly alive. I don't have any way to confirm such a simple thing. Possibly, the 50% probability has already passed beyond me. Maybe I am already dead. I am still alive, maybe. Injected with muscle relaxant, shallow breathes, weak heartbeats. Or, cessation of all of them, simply leaving meat bolus.

I am deprived of any capability of controlling my own body. Who can say that my mind resides in the body continuing vital activities? The five senses have been poisoned with the total darkness. They can’t function as sensory organs. I don't have any chance to know the truth. Possibly, any supposition is fabricated by myself. The situation surrounding me and the uniqueness of myself are components of programmed role-play, possibly.

About the existence of mine, I can’t determine the behavior. I hate to admit it, but I am in the middle of fluctuation.

I wish someone could find me. I wish someone could open the box and observe how I am, and determine what I am. There is not enough power inside me to do so. All I can do is to continue to quiver in the loneliness.

If I were the Almighty, I could say "Let there be light". I know it is impossible. But I can‘t help feeling how nice it would be if I could say so.

My own free will! It could fix every fluctuation surrounding myself!

At the same time, longing produces shadow. If the box is opened, I will be found and observed. As a result, what I am will be determined. To tell the truth, I can’t look away from the fact I am anxious about being determined.

Although I am unable to determine whether I am alive or dead by myself, I am afraid of the death. I am afraid that I am determined as a dead. I can’t accept. Still I can’t feel, I can’t imagine the death as a specific phenomenon. Probably, that is why I am afraid of death.

No, it should not be restricted to me. King of virtue. Deadly murderer. Regular folks. All the same. Maybe, the elder people or patients of bad disease could have some imagination sufficiently close to the true death. But, even so, it is impossible to know the specific experience of death.

In the end, death is the final destination with overwhelming significance. The time and the consciousness have an absolute irreversibility. Death also has the absoluteness which can’t be changed. Even if it is a ritual pass point or an outstanding impressive event.

Myself, the mind of mine here is, will be vanished at the moment at which how I am is determined. If they deprive the lukewarm water, in which I can’t feel the temperature, it is impossible for me to avoid exposing myself to the air.

I am afraid of such an irreversible change. It is not limited to the determination of death. Also I am so anxious that I am determined being alive.

The current existence of myself is like a tiny, tiny illusion standing on an endless point. Not larger than that. Not smaller than that. Not longer than that. Not shorter than that. No expansion. No shrinkage. Standing upon a unique single point. It is mathematically correct. I am something like a ghost staying upon such a point, having confusion about identity of myself.

The point exists at every position on a plane of coordinates, at the same time, not existing at a certain position. If a certain event occurs, on that moment, it will converge me to a single point am ong all the space-times, in which the event has occurred, as if having me step off a bus. Without any concern. Even if the point and I have been a one. The illusion, which has stayed in such a point, has possibilities of being real and being vanished like a mist, to an equal degree.

Now, I am existing in every time-space, I have every nature. At the same time, I am suffering from the loneliness that I am away from every nature. I wish someone can find me. At the same time, I am so anxious that where I will be, and that how I will be at that moment.

I have been released from the law of cause and effect. I am undetermined ever, for ever.

Permalink | 記事への反応(1) | 09:32

2010-09-13

■人には言えない恥ずかしい勘違い

会社から帰ってくるのがいつもより少し早かった俺はゆっくりと風呂に入りたいと思った。

普段は湯船にお湯なんぞ張らないのに「Todayは、ぬるい温泉気分だな」と鼻歌交じり。

上機嫌でツムラの効き湯（越冬１年もの）を準備していた。

風呂釜をのぞき込むと、なんだかちん毛のようなものは張り付いてるし、朝オナニーしたときの

精子が行き場をなくしてカンピンタンになってお亡くなりになった様子の物体も散見された。

『これは非常にまずい』

と判断し、お湯張りをする前に全裸で風呂の清掃を開始した。

風呂場のサイドポケットから取り出した風呂洗剤Ａのボトル残量がEmptyに近かったため

良好な清掃結果を得るためには追加の洗剤が必要だと判断。

種類は違ったがストックしていた風呂洗剤Ｂを使用し、風呂釜に追加注入して利用を開始した。

よもや頭をよぎる注意書き

　『まぜるな危険！』

ぐっ！！！しまったああああ！！！

とっさに風呂の出入り口をぶち破って

玄関先に転がり出る俺。

普段会社で「愚鈍だ」と馬鹿にされる俺でも

この時ばかりは秒速12kmの速度で移動していたと思う。

風呂の出入り口の扉は、巨体に吹き飛ばされ

だらしなく台所のシンクにもたれかかっていた。

「あっぶねーマジで風呂掃除で硫化水素発生とかありえねーわ！

　死体見つかったとき全裸だず」

俺は叫んだ。

慌てて飛び出した勢いで、頭を打って背中も打った。

弱い頭がさらに弱くなったらどう生きるべきかと算段したが、そこまで期待される

人生でもないので、わりとすぐにあきらめがついた。

体と一緒に飛び出してきた風呂洗剤Ａの成分表がふと目にとまった。

「液性：中性」

ゆっくりと、ボトルを拾い上げると、少しやわらかに抱いて

俺はしんしんと泣いた。

終

Permalink | 記事への反応(0) | 23:58

2010-04-18

■息を引き取りました。

わたしが出かけた少しの間にいきをひきとりました。

側にいた家族が気がつかないほど安らかな最後だったようです。。。

The Next Place

By Warren Hanson

The next place that I go

Will be as peaceful and familiar

As a sleepy summer Sunday

And a sweet, untroubled mind.

And yet . . .

It won't be anything like any place I've ever been. . .

Or seen. . . or even dreamed of

In the place I leave behind.

I won't know where I'm going,

And I won't know where I've been

As I tumble through the always

And look back toward the when.

I'll glide beyond the rainbows.

I'll drift above the sky.

I'll fly into the wonder, without ever wondering why.

I won't remember getting there.

Somehow I'll just arrive.

But I'll know that I belong there

And will feel much more alive

Than I have ever felt before.

I will be absolutely free of the things that I held onto

That were holding onto me.

The next place that I go

Will be so quiet and so still

That the whispered song of sweet belonging will rise up to fill

The listening sky with joyful silence,

And with unheard harmonies

Of music made by no one playing,

Like a hush upon breeze.

There will be no room for darkness in that place of living light,

Where an ever-dawning morning pushes back the dying night.

The very air will fill with brilliance, as the brightly shining sun

And the moon and half a million stars are married into one.

The next place that I go Won't really be a place at all.

There won't be any seasons --

Winter, summer, spring or fall --

Nor a Monday, Nor a Friday,

Nor December, Nor July.

And the seconds will be standing still. . .

While hours hurry by.

I will not be a boy or girl,

A woman or man.

I'll simply be just, simply, me.

No worse or better than.

My skin will not be dark or light.

I won't be fat or tall.

The body I once lived in

Won't be part of me at all.

I will finally be perfect.

I will be without a flaw.

I will never make one more mistake,

Or break the smallest law.

And the me that was impatient,

Or was angry, or unkind,

Will simply be a memory.

The me I left behind.

I will travel empty-handed.

There is not a single thing

I have collected in my life

That I would ever want to bring Except. . .

The love of those who loved me,

And the warmth of those who cared.

The happiness and memories

And magic that we shared.

Though I will know the joy of solitude. . .

I'll never be alone. I'll be embraced

By all the family and friends I've ever known.

Although I might not see their faces,

All our hearts will beat as one,

And the circle of our spirits

Will shine brighter than the sun.

I will cherish all the friendship I was fortunate to find,

All love and all the laughter in the place I leave behind.

All these good things will go with me.

They will make my spirit glow.

And that light will shine forever In the next place that I go.

Permalink | 記事への反応(1) | 09:55

2010-01-14

■http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20100114003544

34分

現役のときに比べて腕が鈍ってるなあ

ソースは汚いよ

同じところを二回訪れないことに注意して、次の状態をキューに入れていけばいいだけ

隣は距離1なのでただのFIFOでいい

重み付きのグラフならpriority queueを使う

dequeなんちゃらの前までが入力で、while の中が重要なコード

答えはSとGも塗り潰しちゃったのを出力してる

サンプルの入力で最短距離であることを確認してる

増田できれいにC++を出力するにはどうすればいいんだろう？

#include <map&gt;
#include <string&gt;
#include <iostream&gt;
#include <vector&gt;
#include <iterator&gt;
#include <deque&gt;
#include <set&gt;

using namespace std;
typedef pair<int, int&gt; P;

int dir_x[] = {0,1, -1, 0};
int dir_y[] = {1, 0, 0, -1};

int main() {
  string line;
  vector<string&gt; input;

  while (getline(cin, line)) {
    input.push_back(line);
  }
  const int X = input.size();
  const int Y = input.begin()-&gt;size();

  vector<P&gt; start;
  P goal;
  for (int i = 0; i < X; i++) {
    for (int j = 0; j < Y; j++) {
      if (input[i][j] == 'S') {
        start.push_back(P(i, j));
      }
      else if (input[i][j] == 'G') {
        goal = P(i, j);
      }
    }
  }

  deque<vector<P&gt; &gt; Q;
  set<P&gt; visited;
  Q.push_back(start);

  while (!Q.empty()) {
    vector<P&gt; p = Q.front();
    Q.pop_front();

    if (visited.find(p.back()) != visited.end()) { continue; }
    visited.insert(p.back());

    if (p.back() == goal) {
      for (int i = 0; i < p.size(); i++) {
        input[p[i].first][p[i].second] = '$';
      }
      copy(input.begin(), input.end(), ostream_iterator<string&gt;(cout, "\n"));
      break;
    }

    for (int i = 0; i < 4; i++) {
      P next = P(p.back().first + dir_x[i], p.back().second + dir_y[i]);
      if (input[next.first][next.second] == '*') { continue; }
      vector<P&gt; new_state(p.begin(), p.end());
      new_state.push_back(next);
      Q.push_back(new_state);
    }
  }
  return 0;
}

Permalink | 記事への反応(1) | 02:25

2009-08-28

■Empty

自分って何にも出来なくて、何にも知らなくて、馬鹿な人間なんだと最近すごく実感した。

何かをしても、やる事なす事ことごとく否定され裏切られる。そんな毎日がもう嫌。

そして今無気力状態。

勉強、仕事、家事、運動、趣味…何一つ夢中になれるものが無い。

こんなんじゃ駄目だ。ポジティブシンキングを心がけよう、打開策はあるはずだ…

ただし、もう何巡目だろうか。同じような事を思ったのは。

もうどんな人の声もニュースも情報も、俺の心には響かない、届かない。

周りの存在無しに、自分の存在なんてありえない。俺はそんな大事な事をちっとも理解していなかった。

ただ、実の俺はずっとそうだった。いつも周りを頼っていた。

誰かに自分を肯定してもらいたい願望は、これまで人を肯定してこなかった自分の許されるそれではない。

わかってはいるが、早くその呪縛から解き放たれたい。

誰か助けてほしい。

Permalink | 記事への反応(2) | 00:29