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はてなキーワード: I wishとは
ドルオタではなかったけどゴマキ、今野麻美、なっちが好きで、アイコラサイトで探しまくってた
ありがちだけど率直な人生賛歌できいてて元気でるんだよなあ
それ以外だと LOVEマシーン、ハッピーサマーウェディング、ふるさとはかなり好き
あとは派生グループもじゃんけんぴょんとかちょこっとLOVEとかマジで好き
濃ーいという字を～うーべいべ～辞書でひいたぞ～うーべいべー
あーなたのなまえーそこに足しておいたぞ～
あの頃のつんくはほんとすごかったと思う
もうちょい後期でもいい曲あるのかもだけど、高校からは忙しくなったりビートルズかぶれたりスピッツ聞いたりしてたからもうついていけてないんだよなあ
プッチモニダイバーをラジカセで録音してたのめっちゃ懐かしいわ・・・
あーなんかまた聞きたくなってきた
うちの職場は走り回ってる人が多い。
とても危なくて何度もぶつかりそうになる。
190cmのおっさんが走って150cmのババアにぶつかったら完全に事故だよ。
というわけで今日暇だったのでどうしたらいいか考えた。
要するに走るのをやめさせるのが一番根本的な解決になる。
どうしたら人は走るのをやめるのかなって考えた。
日本は恥の文化。恥ずかしいことが日本人は大嫌いだ。というわけで、走る＝恥ずかしいと思わせればいいんだと考えた。
走ってる人がいてセンサーが作動すると、オフィス内を爆音で平井堅の「瞳をとじて」が流れるようにする。
急がなきゃ！→走る→I wish foreverひとみをとじて→同僚たちからの舌打ち
恥ずかしい。
他にもっと恥ずかしい歌があったらそっちでもいいんだけど、世界中にある音楽のなかで一番恥ずかしいのはやっぱり平井堅の「瞳をとじて」なのではないだろうか。
最初、爆風スランプが定番でいいかなと思ってたんだけど、それだと恥ずかしさがないから違うかなと。
やっぱり糞バラードが恥ずかしい。
Translated from http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20110907020451
For a long time, I am in a dark box.
According to someone's comment I heard outside of the box, a tiny bottle containing deadly poison is located in this box. Although the bottle is completely sealed, a hammer is positioned in the vicinity of the bottle. And they said the hammer would fall down at a certain time.
When is "the certain time"? I don't know. In this very moment? Or distant future? Possibly, it already has come (I don't want to think about it). No one can affect the hammer. As an independent event, it will fall down with probability 50%. The probability is exactly 50%. Possibly, the bottle may be broken, or may not. About myself, dead, or, alive.
I must say, how terrible the situation is.
It is impossible for me to avoid having a furious indignation. My life, the most important issue for me, is completely away from me, and is solely dependent on the simple figure, FIFTY PERCENT! Too much terrible.
Additionally, and I think it is completely unreasonable, I am shackled in many ways to keep the probability at exactly 50%.
Visual perception. The box is completely shielded from any light. It's for avoiding me from finding and destroying the bottle and apparatus. Complete darkness. I am in the total darkness. Thus, now I can’t see even the outline of myself. Possibly it sounds strange, the darkness makes me have a doubt about the existence of my body itself.
Acoustic perception. Maybe, from the reason I mentioned above, a perfect sound insulation is used. I can’t hear even the voice of my own. I don't know the mechanism. In the first place, as I can’t see anything, how can I investigate it? So, this is only a speculation, possibly, my drum membranes were damaged before enclosure in this box, or, some special material is used for the wall of the box.
Anyway, in a dark box too much good at shielding light and sound, my visual and acoustic perception is dead just as the term indicates.
As if further confirmation are needed, a huge fatigue weighing heavily upon me is another shackle for me. It seems that they gave me some kind of muscle relaxant to avoid me from struggling. As I can’t change from the same posture, my tactile perception is almost paralyzed.
No light. No sound. Smell and taste are unreliable. Tactile perception is in malfunction. I am like a puppet. All the five senses are out of control of mine. Too much cruel. Perfect shackles. I wish if they had given a sleeping medicine. I feel I am in agony without any external injury. My life, my existence itself, is completely ignored. Such a humiliation keeps my sanity. Only such a humiliation can.
The right to control the life and death of myself is completely deprived. I hate such situation. The core determinant of the continuity of my life is completely dependent upon, solely upon, a pure probability. Completely away from anyone's will. I hate it, again, I hate it!
Why do I have to be enclosed in such a box? In such a ridiculous box, why do I have to be in fear of life and death with such perfect shackles?
I am lonely. Am I feeling empty and flat? Difficult to avoid sobbing? No. My loneliness is much deeper. I am in a sea of void. I am alone. Completely alone. As an orphan, I was thrown into this endless darkness. I am quivering in the absolute zero.
There is no perspective in this box. Only the darkness is here. I can’t feel the bottle and the hammer. I can’t feel the wall, the bottom, and the ceiling neither. They should be there. But all the five senses of mine are deprived. I feel like there is nothing. While those things have some meanings.
Speaking honestly, I am not so sure I am in a box. I am sure that what I am exists. I am thinking. I am fantasizing. It is the evidence showing the uniqueness of mine, which is called the ego or the consciousness or the mind, is solid. But, is the uniqueness is truly enclosed in the box? Is it possible that it is floating in another space? I can’t eliminate such doubts.
Possibly, what I am here is floating in the end of the universe, or is lying down at the bottom of the Mariana Trench. Or going down from a vent of the Kilauea volcano, maybe.
I don't have any method to know how the box (enclosing me) is. All the senses of mine are dead. It is impossible for me to determine whether here is inside of a box or not.
In addition to that, I am not so sure that I am truly alive. I don't have any way to confirm such a simple thing. Possibly, the 50% probability has already passed beyond me. Maybe I am already dead. I am still alive, maybe. Injected with muscle relaxant, shallow breathes, weak heartbeats. Or, cessation of all of them, simply leaving meat bolus.
I am deprived of any capability of controlling my own body. Who can say that my mind resides in the body continuing vital activities? The five senses have been poisoned with the total darkness. They can’t function as sensory organs. I don't have any chance to know the truth. Possibly, any supposition is fabricated by myself. The situation surrounding me and the uniqueness of myself are components of programmed role-play, possibly.
About the existence of mine, I can’t determine the behavior. I hate to admit it, but I am in the middle of fluctuation.
I wish someone could find me. I wish someone could open the box and observe how I am, and determine what I am. There is not enough power inside me to do so. All I can do is to continue to quiver in the loneliness.
If I were the Almighty, I could say "Let there be light". I know it is impossible. But I can‘t help feeling how nice it would be if I could say so.
My own free will! It could fix every fluctuation surrounding myself!
At the same time, longing produces shadow. If the box is opened, I will be found and observed. As a result, what I am will be determined. To tell the truth, I can’t look away from the fact I am anxious about being determined.
Although I am unable to determine whether I am alive or dead by myself, I am afraid of the death. I am afraid that I am determined as a dead. I can’t accept. Still I can’t feel, I can’t imagine the death as a specific phenomenon. Probably, that is why I am afraid of death.
No, it should not be restricted to me. King of virtue. Deadly murderer. Regular folks. All the same. Maybe, the elder people or patients of bad disease could have some imagination sufficiently close to the true death. But, even so, it is impossible to know the specific experience of death.
In the end, death is the final destination with overwhelming significance. The time and the consciousness have an absolute irreversibility. Death also has the absoluteness which can’t be changed. Even if it is a ritual pass point or an outstanding impressive event.
Myself, the mind of mine here is, will be vanished at the moment at which how I am is determined. If they deprive the lukewarm water, in which I can’t feel the temperature, it is impossible for me to avoid exposing myself to the air.
I am afraid of such an irreversible change. It is not limited to the determination of death. Also I am so anxious that I am determined being alive.
The current existence of myself is like a tiny, tiny illusion standing on an endless point. Not larger than that. Not smaller than that. Not longer than that. Not shorter than that. No expansion. No shrinkage. Standing upon a unique single point. It is mathematically correct. I am something like a ghost staying upon such a point, having confusion about identity of myself.
The point exists at every position on a plane of coordinates, at the same time, not existing at a certain position. If a certain event occurs, on that moment, it will converge me to a single point among all the space-times, in which the event has occurred, as if having me step off a bus. Without any concern. Even if the point and I have been a one. The illusion, which has stayed in such a point, has possibilities of being real and being vanished like a mist, to an equal degree.
Now, I am existing in every time-space, I have every nature. At the same time, I am suffering from the loneliness that I am away from every nature. I wish someone can find me. At the same time, I am so anxious that where I will be, and that how I will be at that moment.
I have been released from the law of cause and effect. I am undetermined ever, for ever.
http://contents.oricon.co.jp/music/special/2010/musicrank0624/index02.html
もうね・・・
http://mudainodqnment.blog35.fc2.com/blog-entry-734.html
の１さんに痛く感動したので、ちょっとずつ英語に訳すことにした。
めんどくさいので訳すのは１さんだけ。
突っ込み等はお気軽に。
前 ttp://anond.hatelabo.jp/20090302234304
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176 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[sage]：2009/02/18(水) 02:54:32.12 ID:olySmeY7O
判断おそ。外資の海外オフィスならオフィスごとパーツであたりまえ。
戦略たててるのは貴方のようなパーツではないのよ。だからクビになった
＞＞176
そうねー、そうだと思う。でもしょうがなかったかな
就職した当時は他にどこも行くとこ無くて、就職したらずっと忙しかったし
アソシエイトになった頃くらいから「ありゃ、やばいんじゃね？」って思ってたけど、 景気も給料も良かったから「ま、いっか」って思ってた
Yeah, I guess so. But I think there was nothing I can do.
When I got a job, there was no other choice. And I was been busy since I joined the company. When I became an associate, I've been thinking 'oops, that's not good'. but the economy and the salary was good. So I thought 'it's ok, though'.
What is my next job? I'm enjoying a little bit.
161 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[sage]： 2009/02/18(水) 02:24:57.11 ID:olySmeY7O
加えてインフレ時の行動の説明も、証券会社目線でしかない。単調すぎる
＞＞161
勉強不足で申し訳ない↓
I apologize I didn't study hard enough.
154 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]：2009/02/18(水) 02:18:07.31 ID:IkGPTGhh0
90年代に英国や欧州各国も結局同じ体系にせざるを得なくなったという…。
地に足ついてないし、信用ならねぇと思ってる。
＞＞154
そうだね。でも個人的には、欧州各行から流入した負の性質もあると思ってる。
You are right. But in my opinion, there are negative characteristics which are from europian banks. For example, universal banks:) or one stop:)
But this is going to be so detailed.
47 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]：2009/02/17(火) 22:57:18.86 ID:5cDlWeJZO
いいじゃねぇか
＞＞47
彼はアル中で有名だったからなあ
財務省の友達は結構グチをこぼしていた
he was notorious for alcoholic.
A friend of Treasury complained about him.
49 ：梅が枝餅 ◆CmkUk6.1BM []：2009/02/17(火) 23:01:53.44 ID:DrRvRxjv0
ここまでガチなら＞＞1はいい女認定
＞＞49
ニートでも自分を評価してくれる人はいるんだな。こんなに幸せなことは無い
There seems to be a person who value me even though I'm a neet. I can't be happier.
50 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:05:53.12 ID:6KkdBV6i0
＞＞1
資格はどんなんだ？
＞＞50
証券外務員１種と証券アナリストと米国公認会計士（uncertificate）
弁護士とか会計士持ってる人もいるが、少なめ。仕事が超出来る人は意外と資格持ってない。
I have securities broker representaive license first grade, securities analyst, certified public accountant(uncertificate).
some people has attorney or accountant license, but it's not much. Those who can do a excellent job don't have license unexpectedly.
52 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:13:26.74 ID:Wm1ZWPrp0
で、あなたは結局自己主張がしたい構ってちゃんなんですね。
いいんですよね?
＞＞52
それに加えて、仕事ばっかで友達とあんま遊んでなかったのでぼっち寂しがりやです。
大した中身も無いのにレスしてくれる人がいてとても嬉しい
Along with that, I feel lonely easily because I did nothing but a job and didn't hang around with friends so mcuh.
I'm so glad there are people who reply to the empty writings.
55 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]：2009/02/17(火) 23:18:36.38 ID:Df8TgocCO
なんだこのエリート…？
＞＞55
なんかみんなにエリートと言われるが、日本だと本当のエリートは外資系証券には来てない気がする
Everybody say I'm elite. But I assume the real elites don't came to the foreign securities.
The industry works because in America, smart people are seeking money.
56 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:20:38.52 ID:Zzlsf+8S0
＞＞56
ま じ で ？ しかし残念だ。高校生のときに言って欲しかったな。
Are you sure? but I'm sorry. I wish you said that when I was in a high school.
There are a lot in foreign companies. But be careful because some of them has mental problems.
57 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:22:40.59 ID:Xrex6pm10
＞＞1
まん毛濃い？
＞＞57
毛が薄い家系なんです
Thin hair is common in my family.
59 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:26:42.84 ID:FcXM7v370
何カップ？
＞＞59
おしゃれな下着が見つかるくらいのサイズ
一度「肩凝るわあ」って言ってみたい
it's a size which you can find fashionable underwear.
I wish I could say "I have a stiff neck" just one time.
62 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:29:12.23 ID:Z1HjrWc4O
＞＞1は良い女性。
わかるwww
いざという時に頼りになるのはこういう男性。
＞＞62
うおおお、嬉しいぜ！意外とみんな優しいな
でもおいらが本当に良い女かどうかは、人生をかけて証明していくことなんだぜ と気取ってみるﾃｽﾄ
Wow, I'm so happy! To my surprise, everyone is kind.
But, whether I'm a really good woman or not is what I have to prove until I die. I sound snobbish as a test.
63 ：以下、名無しにかわりましてVIPがお送りします[]： 2009/02/17(火) 23:30:48.87 ID:daLECn7w0
そこからさがせば？
＞＞63
転職はヘッドハンター経由だね。さっき早速電話かかってきた。軽く怖いｗ
一応まだ退職同意書にサインしてないから失職が完了してなくて、失業手当は申請できない
再就職先が決まったら速攻で退職して、手当めいっぱいもらえるように入社時期ずらすつもり
I'll change jobs through headhunter. I got a call a little while ago. I'm a little scared :)
My unemployment is not complete because I haven't signed the retirement letter. So I can't apply for the dole.
If I found a place of reemployment, I'll resign immediately and adjust the day I join the company to get the dole as much as I can.
署名記事： ハアレツ紙 http://www.haaretz.com/hasen/spages/1064909.html
テープ起こし： 共同通信 http://www.47news.jp/47topics/e/93880.php
テープ起こし： 毎日新聞（前半） http://mdn.mainichi.jp/mdnnews/news/20090302p2a00m0na004000c.html
毎日新聞（後半） http://mdn.mainichi.jp/mdnnews/national/news/20090303p2g00m0dm005000c.html
（ハアレツ紙より）
増田さん訳： http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20090218005155
sho_ta さん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/sho_ta/20090218/1234913290
びじうさん訳： http://blog.livedoor.jp/bijoux_iris/archives/51179283.html
finalvent さん訳： http://finalvent.cocolog-nifty.com/fareastblog/2009/02/post-1345.html
ちぶぞうさん訳： http://lsi.cocolog-nifty.com/blog/2009/02/post-118d.html
wh_cm さん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/wh_cm/20090218
mousecat さん訳： http://www.geocities.co.jp/Playtown-Spade/2177/diary0902.html#20090218
fujipon さん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/fujipon/20090218#p1
adfjpn さん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/adfjpn/20090218
yu-kuboさん訳： http://www3.atwiki.jp/cloud9science/pages/121.html
m_debuggerさん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/m_debugger/20090218/1234917019
youghsoroさん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/youghsoro/20090219
maki555さん訳： http://maki555.blog88.fc2.com/blog-entry-1161.html
Ryo-maさん訳： http://ameblo.jp/fwic7889/entry-10210795708.html
chorocoさん訳： http://choroco.tumblr.com/post/79548962
giantpandaさん訳： http://d.hatena.ne.jp/giantpanda/20090220
適当社長さん訳： http://ameblo.jp/at-nine/entry-10210524463.html
細馬さん訳： http://12kai.com/murakami_jerusalem.html
（共同通信より）
共同通信訳： http://www.47news.jp/47topics/e/93879.php
ただし、共同通信記事では省略されているハアレツ紙記事の内容が含まれていたり、単語が落ちていたりするので、英文ともども最終版なのかは注意が必要。
共同通信訳微修正版： http://www.47news.jp/47topics/e/93925.php
変更箇所
（前）父が朝食前に毎日、長く深い仏教の祈りを捧げている
（後）父が朝食前に毎日、長く深いお経を上げている
（毎日新聞より）
毎日新聞訳（前半）：http://mainichi.jp/enta/art/news/20090302mog00m040057000c.html
毎日新聞訳（後半I）：http://mainichi.jp/enta/art/news/20090303dde018040076000c.html
毎日新聞訳（後半II）：http://mainichi.jp/enta/art/news/20090303dde018040076000c2.html
番号は便宜的につけただけ。
1
（H）I have come to Jerusalem today as a novelist,
（K）Good evening. I have come to Jerusalem today as a novelist,
2
（H）Diplomats and military men
（K）Diplomats and generals
3
（H）no one criticizes the novelist as immoral for telling them
（K）no one criticizes the novelist as immoral for telling lies
4
5
（H）we first have to clarify where the truth lies within us.
（K）we first have to clarify where the truth-lies within us, within ourselves.
6
7
8
（H）in the blockaded Gaza City
（K）in the blockaded city of Gaza
9
（H）unleash its overwhelming military power. This is an impression, of course, that I would not wish to give. I do not approve of any war, and I do not support any nation. Neither, of course, do I wish to see my books subjected to a boycott.
（K）unleash its overwhelming military power. Neither, of course, do I wish to see my books subjected to a boycott.
10
（H）I chose to speak to you rather than to say nothing.
This is not to say that I am here to deliver a political message. To make judgments about right and wrong is one of the novelist's most important duties, of course.
It is left to each writer, however, to decide upon the form in which he or she will convey those judgments to others. I myself prefer to transform them into stories - stories that tend toward the surreal. Which is why I do not intend to stand before you today delivering a direct political message.
Please do
（K）I chose to speak to you rather than to say nothing.
Please do
11
（H）Please do, however, allow me to deliver one very personal message.
（K）Please do allow me to deliver a message, one very personal message.
12
（H）Someone else will have to decide what is right and what is wrong; perhaps time or history will decide
（K）Someone else will have to decide what is right and what is wrong; perhaps time or history will do it
13
14
（H）This is not all, though.
（K）But this is not all.
15
（H）The System
（K）the System
16
（H）I fully believe it is the novelist’s job
（K）I truly believe it is the novelist’s job
17
18
19
20
（H）the people who had died in the war.
（K）the people who had died in the battlefield.
21
（H）individuals transcending nationality and race and religion, fragile eggs
（K）individuals transcending nationality and race and religion, and we are all fragile eggs
22
（H）and from the warmth we gain by joining souls together.
（K）and from our believing in the warmth we gain by joining souls together.
23
（H）I am grateful that my books are being read by people in many parts of the world. And I am glad to have had the opportunity to speak to you here today.
（K）I am grateful that my books are being read by people in many parts of the world. And I would like to express my gratitude to the readers in Israel. You are the biggest reason why I am here. And I hope we are sharing something, something very meaningful. And I am glad to have had the opportunity to speak to you here today. Thank you very much.
英語読みの読者が思い浮かべるのは、やはり''Hard-boiled Wonderland and the End of the World''（『世界の終りとハードボイルド・ワンダーランド』の英訳）になるでしょうか。パレスチナを念頭に置いて見ると、''The End of the World''の地図は強烈に感じるものがあります。私は主人公（＝作者）の選択と「卵の未来」について思いを馳せました（このような読みの良し悪しは脇に置きます）。
追記：
adfjpnさん訳へのリンクを追加
yu-kuboさん訳、m_debuggerさん訳、youghsoroさん訳へのリンクを追加
共同通信訳微修正版へのリンクと変更箇所の引用、蛇足としての感想を追加
maki555さん訳、Ryo-maさん訳、chorocoさん訳へのリンクを追加、蛇足部分の誤記を訂正、追記が増えたため見出し化
蛇足部分の訂正箇所
giantpandaさん訳、適当社長さん訳、細馬さん訳へのリンクを追加
付録II http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20090302222413 を別に作成、リンクを追加
付録III http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20090303214139 を別に作成、リンクを追加
犯行予告にならない程度に。
気に入ったのあったら自由に使ってください。自己責任で。
全角10文字、半角32文字までみたい。
[しねばいいのに] [死ねばいい] [死ねばよろしい] [死ねばよろし] [死んだらええのに] [死んだらええねん] [死ねばええんちゃう]
[むしろなぜ死なない？] [なぜ死なない？] [むしろなぜ生きてる？] [なぜ生きてる？] [なんで生きてるの？]
[なぜ死ななかった？] [死という選択肢もある] [お前の最善の選択は死] [最良の選択肢は「死」] [死んで咲く花もある] [死んで実る実もある]
[I wish you would die] [Wish you would die] [I wish you'd die] [You had better die] [You'd better die] [You must die at once]
[You should die] [You'd better kill yourself] [You should kill yourself] [All you gotta do is to die]
[The only thing you must do is to die] [You only have to die] [Your best choice is DEATH]
[お前を殺して俺も死ぬ]
[日本のために死ね] [世界のために死ね] [世界平和のために死ね] [地球のために死ね] [アニメのために死ね] [アニオタのために死ね]
[左翼のために死ね] [右翼のために死ね] [自由のために死ね] [自由主義のために死ね] [保守主義のために死ね] [社会主義のために死ね] [共産主義のために死ね]
[ウェブのために死ね] [ネットのために死ね] [internetの未来のために死ね] [IT業界のために死ね] [俺のために死ね] [私のために死ね] [あたしのために死んで]
[死のために死ね][死ぬために死ね] [とにかく死ね] [とりあえず死ね] [いっぺん死んどけ] [一回死んどけ] [いっぺん死んでみ？]
[二回死ね] [三回死ね] [三回くらい死んどけ] [五回死ね] [10回死ね] [100回死ね] [1000回死ね] [のたうち回って死ね] [血を吐いて死ね]
[泣きながら死ね] [笑いながら死ね] [泣かれながら死ね] [親に泣かれながら死ね] [嫁に泣かれながら死ね] [娘に泣かれながら死ね]
[犬に泣かれながら死ね] [猫に泣かれながら死ね] [亀に泣かれながら死ね] [蛇に泣かれながら死ね]
[象に泣かれながら死ね] [俺に泣かれながら死ね] [私に泣かれながら死ね]
[惜しまれながら死ね]
[死ね、泣いてやるから]
[4回死ね] [8回死ね] [16回死ね] [32回死ね] [64回死ね] [128回死ね] [256回死ね]
[死んで謝れ] [死んで償え] [死して償え] [死をもって償え] [死んであがなえ] [死してあがなえ] [死をもってあがなえ]
[死ね俺が介錯してやる] [俺と一緒に死のう] [いっしょに自殺しよう]
[死ねば楽になるよ] [死んだら楽になるよ] [死は永遠のやすらぎ] [死は至高のやすらぎ] [楽になったら？] [死んだら？]
[死をすすめます] [私のおすすめは死]
[愛の名の下に死ね] [自由の名の下に死ね] [日本の名の下に死ね] [オタクの名の下に死ね] [右翼の名の下に死ね] [保守の名の下に死ね] [左翼の名の下に死ね]
[俺の胸で死ね] [わたしの胸で死ね] [俺の腹の上で死ね] [私の腹の上で死ね] [畳の上で死ね] [病院で死ね] [管に囲まれて死ね] [わたしの中で死ね]
[日本を代表して死ね] [日本人を代表して死ね] [オタクを代表して死ね] [ブロガを代表して死ね]
[hackerを代表して死ね] [crackerを代表して死ね] [geekを代表して死ね]
[死んで生まれ変われ] [死んで生まれ変わるな]
[私はあなたの死を願う] [私はあなたの死を祈る]
[愛は死よりも冷たい] [死は愛よりも暖かい]
[死ね]
[死ねばいいのに]
答えはいらない。ただ、今は、僕が何かになれればいいのかな。だめだ。
I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off
I wish I was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on
I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung onThe christmas tree,
I wish I was the star that went on top
I wish I was the evidence,
I wish I was the grounds For 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky
I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me
I wish I was as fortunate, as fortunate as me
I wish I was a messenger and all the news was good
I wish I was the full moon shining off a camaros hood
I wish I was an alien at home behind the sun
I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on
I wish I was the pedal brake that you depended on
I wish I was the verb to trust and never let you down
1. Stay in school. Don’t quit.
2. Money doesn’t spoil, it keeps.
3. Don’t buy the first house you look at.
4. Establish the habit of living within a budget.
5. Learn how to negotiate a better deal on everything.
6. Keep your medical insurance in force at all times.
7. It’s quality of time at work, but quantity of time at home that matters.
8. Don’t listen to those who think there is a shortcut to wealth.
8a. Stay far, far away from any Multi Level Marketing “business”
9. Make sure your spouse’s values line up with your own.
10. Learn how to network.
11. Never accept a job just because the pay is higher.
12. Trust, but verify.
1. 学校を絶対にやめないで継続する
3. 第一印象で家を買わずに、近隣の住宅環境に恵まれた安い家を買う
4. 予算内で生活をする癖をつける
7. 仕事は質、家庭は量が大事
8-2. マルチ商法と呼ばれるビジネスから、遠く遠く距離を置く
10. 友人とのつながり
12. 信用はしても確認をする
43歳の自分が、いま23歳の自分に教えたいこととは一体なんだろうか？
知りたくても知ることはできないし、多分人によって伝えたいことは違うんだろうね。
「ブログなんてクソしかないんだ」
「そんなことないよ」
I know， I know I’ve let you down
「そうだとしても、玉に当たることが滅多にない。本当に、ないんだ」
「それでも、絶対に玉はあるんだよ」
I’ve been a fool to myself
I thought that I could
「ぼくの目の前に広がるのは、いつも瓦礫ばかりなんだ。ぼくは、そう、絶望している」
「じゃあ一緒にさがそうよ！」
But now through all the hurt & pain
「……」
「一緒にさがそうよ……」
「……嫌だ」
―沈黙―
It’s time for me to respect the ones you love mean more than anything
「私はひとりでもさがすよ。ネットのこと、大好きだから」
So with sadness in my heart
I feel the best thing I could do is end it all and leave forever
「嘘だ！」
「ほんとだよ」
「嘘だっ！ ブログには何もないんだ！ 空っぽの洞窟なんだよ！ ひとの感情をネタにして弄んで、またひとつ不愉快な思いして、何になるっていうんだよ！」
「そうやって、人の気持ちを踏みにじってきたのね」
「クネクネだとか、プロレスだとか、意味のわからないニヤニヤ笑いが僕を追いつめるだけだ。だったら何もしないほうがいい」
「そうやって、自分の耳を塞いできたのね」
「2chにひどいことされたんだ。ブログもmixiも、誰も僕にやさしくしてくれないんだ」
「そうやって、何もかもひとのせいにしてきたのね」
what’s done is done it feels so bad
what once was happy now is sad
I’ll never love again my world is ending
「何を願うの？」
「何を望むの？」
「……」
「そのためにあなたは何をしてきたの？」
「そのためにあなたは何ができるの？」
「……」
I wish that I could turn back time
’cause now the guilt is all mine
can’t live without the trust from those you love
「自分が好きなのね。好きで好きで、だから嫌いといわれるのがつらいのね」
「……」
「そうやって、嫌なものを全部排除しようと、子供みたいにぐずっているのね」
「……はてなユーザーのくせに！ なんにもわかってないくせに！」
I know we can’t forget the past
you can’t forget love & pride because of that， it’s kill in me inside
「はてなだからどうだってぇのよ！ あんたが今ここで何もしなかったら、私、許さないからね。一生、あんたを許さないからね！」
「……」
「今の自分が絶対じゃないわ！ 後で間違いに気付き、後悔する。わたしはそれの繰り返しだった。ぬか喜びと自己嫌悪を重ねるだけ、でも、そのたびに前に進めた気がする」
「……」
「もう一度、ブログを書いてケリをつけなさい。ブログを書いてきた自分に、何のためにブログを書いたのか、何のためにブログを書くのか、今の自分の答えを見つけなさい。そして、ケリをつけたら、一緒に面白いものをさがしにいきましょう」
「……んっ！」
「……大人のキスよ。帰ってきたら、続きをしましょ」
カタカタと響くタイプ音。嗚咽が入り交じりながらも、その音には一抹の決意が感じられた。
「ぼくをゆるしてください。あなたは、ぼくが何をしたらゆるしてくれますか」
終劇
